"Hopefully in five years time, I'll have made a lot of money, bought a desert island somewhere and disappeared so no one will ever see me ever again," says one of British tabloids' favourite stars.

X Factor judge and singer Tulisa has, in the past year, been betrayed.

Intimate details of her love life have been published in the press, culminating in her ex-boyfriend, Justin Edwards, posting footage of her performing a sex act on the internet and her having to go to court to prove she was not behind the leak.

It's no wonder she wants out of the fame game, something she says she never asked for in the first place.

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Tulisa Contostavlos outside the High Court in London after formally settling her legal action against Justin Edwards

"I'm not in it for the fame, I love making music and earning a lot of money from it and that's about it," she tells me as we sit on the 14th floor of her publishing agent's office, surrounded by signed copies of her tell-all biography.

It's time for the former N-Dubz to take back control and release what she says is "the truth" about her past.

"I've noticed that recently, in the past two years, I've had people taking an interest in my personal life and people seem to enjoy making judgements on me.

"I'm happy to be judged because I'm putting myself in this position, so it's understandable, but if I'm going to be judged I want to be judged on the truth," she explains.

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N-Dubz (left to right) Dappy, Tulisa and Fazer

From the way she's portrayed in the press, you couldn't be blamed for thinking Tulisa is one of the celebrity world's loud-mouthed and trashy subjects, and the fact she's not opposed to wearing tracksuits is repeatedly mocked.

What I find is a softly-spoken young woman, who considers each question carefully and answers in what seems an honest and composed way.

I ask her if she's using the book as a defence mechanism. If she reveals her secrets - such as the fact that she lost her virginity at 14 to a drug dealer, indulged in drugs at a young age and was the victim of a sex attack at 16, after her drink was spiked - then people from her past will no longer have any stories to sell?

"Yeah, exactly," she says. "And it's about all of the stories that were written and were rubbish in gossip mags, this goes and clears up some things," the Mobo-nominated singer from Camden, London, explains.

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Tulisa Contostavlos at a signing session for her new book

Excerpts from her biography, Honest, have already been serialised in The Sun, leading to headlines such as 'Tulisa Contostavlos: My sex attack horror', so what's left in the book to shock us?

"There are quite a few moments, I think because I never talk about my love life, so maybe opening up about my love life. People write mostly about my love life so I thought 'OK, at least hear the truth.'"

She says any worries she had about the book coming have already "gone with the first few headlines" and that realeasing her debut album is scarier than laying herself bare in the book.

She adds: "There are loads of songs that relate to personal life situations. I can't go into detail and say which ones but I guess people can guess... there are lots of songs on the album that are definitely inspired."

In an interview with This Morning this week, Tulisa revealed she thinks that 50 per cent of the public love her and 50 per cent hate her. Does she think the book will change people's opinions?

"I don't want it to change people's opinions, I just want them to know the truth and if it changes even for the better or worse, at least it's based on the truth."

Tulisa's autobiography Honest: My Story So Far is out now. Will you be picking up a copy?

Find out what Tulisa had to say about the X Factor and how she wants Joseph Whelan to return to the show in part two of our interview here.

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  • T4 on the beach - Weston-Super-Mare

    N-Dubz performing at T4 on the Beach, at Weston Super Mare in Somerset.

  • N-Dubz at Tower Hamlets Cemetery Park - London

    Chart-topping N-Dubz will today swap the stage for the cemetery and the mic for the pitchfork to help 45 young volunteers at Tower Hamlets Cemetery Park, East London transform a deconsecrated cemetery into a woodland retreat for nearby residents. The hip-hop three-piece will join volunteers amongst the gravestones for an Orange RockCorps volunteer project that will involve chopping down trees and hacking back centuries of overgrowth.

  • Radio 1's Big Weekend

    N-Dubz backstage at Radio 1's Big Weekend at Lydiard Park in Swindon.

  • V Festival 2011 - Chelmsford

    Tulisa Contostavlos of N Dubz performing on day two of the V festival in Chelmsford, Essex.

  • V Festival 2011 - Chelmsford

    Tulisa from N-Dubz performs on the 4 Music Stage at the V Festival in Chelmsford.

  • Capital FM's Jingle Bell Ball - Day One - Press Room - London

    (left to right) Dappy, Tulisa and Fazer of N-Dubz in the press room of Capital FM';s Jingle Bell Ball at the O2 Arena in London.

  • Pride of Britain Awards - London

    Tulisa Contostavlos arriving for the Pride of Britain awards at the Grosvenor House Hotel, London.

  • Tulisa Contostavlos perfume launch - London

    Tulisa Contostavlos launches her new fragrance The Female Boss at the The Perfume Shop, Oxford Street London.

  • Cosmopolitan Ultimate Women Awards - London

    Jade Thirlwall, Perrie Edwards and Leigh-Anne Pinnock of Little Mix, with mentor Tulisa Contostavlos (middle) at the Cosmopolitan Ultimate Women Awards at Banqueting House, Whitehall, London.

  • BBC Children In Need Appeal 2011

    Tulisa Contostavlos of The Collective performs during the BBC Children In Need Appeal 2011, at the BBC Television Centre, Wood Lane, White City, London.

  • The Twilight Saga: Breaking Dawn: Part One UK Premiere - London

    Tulisa Contostavlos arriving for the UK premiere of The Twilight Saga: Breaking Dawn Part 1, at the Westfield Stratford City, Stratford, London.

  • National Television Awards 2012 - Show - London

    Tulisa Contostavlos collects the Best Talent Show award for X Factor on stage during the 2012 NTA Awards at the O2, Greenwich, London

  • Tulisa Contostavlos

    British singer, Tulisa Contostavlos, arrives for the FHM 100 Sexiest Women in the World Party, at a central London venue. Tuesday, May 1, 2012. (AP Photo/Jonathan Short)

  • The X Factor

    Tulisa arrives on the red carpet for the first round of X Factor auditions at the Echo Arena, Liverpool.

  • FHM 100 Sexiest Women In The World 2012 launch party - London

    Tulisa Contostavlos arrives at the FHM 100 Sexiest Women In The World 2012 launch party at Proud Bank in London.

  • The X Factor

    X Factor judge Tulisa Contostavlosmeets the fans as she arrives at the X Factor auditions at the O2 in Greenwich, London.

  • Tulisa joins V Festival line-up

    File photo dated 25/01/12 of Tulisa Contostavlos, who has been added to the line-up for the V Festival. The singer joins headliners The Stone Roses and The Killers at the event, which runs across two days on two sites in Essex and Staffordshire.

  • The X Factor Auditions - Manchester

    Tulisa Contostavlos during The X Factor Auditions in Manchester

  • Tulisa Contostavlos

    British singer Tulisa Contostavlos performs on stage at the 2012 Wireless Music Festival in Hyde Park, central London, Saturday, July 7, 2012. (AP Photo/Joel Ryan)

  • Barclaycard Wireless Festival 2012 - London

    Tulisa performs at the Barclaycard Wireless Festival 2012 at Hyde Park in London.

  • Tulisa Contostavlos In Court - London

    Tulisa Contostavlos outside the High Court in London after formally settling her legal action against an ex-boyfriend over a sex tape of the couple which appeared on the internet.

  • X Factor Launch 2012 - London

    Tulisa Contostavlos (left) and Nicole Scherzinger arriving at the launch of this year's X Factor at the Corinthian Hotel in London.

  • X Factor auditions - Manchester

    X Factor judge Tulisa Contostavlos arrives at Event City in Manchester for the second day of X Factor auditions in the city.

  • V Festival 2012 - Weston Park

    Tulisa performing on main stage of V Festival in Weston Park.

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    Tulisa performing at the V Festival in Hylands Park, Chelmsford, eastern England, Sunday, Aug. 19, 2012. (AP Photo/PA, Yui Mok)

  • V Festival 2012 - Chelmsford

    Tulisa performing at the V Festival in Hylands Park, Chelmsford.

  • V Festival 2012 - Chelmsford

    Tulisa performing on The Virgin Media Stage at the V Festival in Hylands Park, Chelmsford.

  • V Festival 2012 - Chelmsford

    Tulisa performing on The Virgin Media Stage at the V Festival in Hylands Park, Chelmsford.

  • X Factor Launch 2012 - London

    (left - right) Tulisa Contostavlos, Louis Walsh, Nicole Scherzinger and Dermot O'Leary at the launch of this year's X Factor at the Corinthian Hotel in London.

  • X Factor auditions - Liverpool

    X Factor judge Tulisa Contostavlos arrives at the Echo Arena in Liverpool, where the latest round of auditions for the show are taking place.

  • Barclaycard Wireless Festival 2012 - London

    Tulisa performs at the Barclaycard Wireless Festival 2012 at Hyde Park in London.

  • 2012 Mobo Nominations - London

    Tulisa attends the announcement of the nominees for the MOBO Awards in Wardour Street, London.

  • Tulisa reveals horror of sex attack

    X Factor judge Tulisa Contostavlos has said she was drugged and sexually abused when she was 16, and did not tell her family or the police.

  • 2009 MOBO Awards - Glasgow

    Tulisa from N-Dubz arriving for the 2009 MOBO awards at the SECC in Glasgow

  • FHM 100 Sexiest Women In The World 2012 launch party - London

    Tulisa Contostavlos arrives at the FHM 100 Sexiest Women In The World 2012 launch party at Proud Bank in London.

  • Tulisa Contostavlos Book Signing - Kent

    N Dubz singer Tulisa turned X Factor judge signs copies of her autobiography Honest: My Life So Far at WHSmiths in Kent.

  • Tulisa Contostavlos Book Signing - Kent

    Tulisa Contostavlos at a signing session for her new book, Honest: My Story So Far at WHSmith in Bluewater Shopping Centre, Greenhithe.

  • Tulisa Contostavlos Book Signing - Kent

    Tulisa Contostavlos at a signing session for her new book Honest: My Story So Far at Bluewater Shopping Centre.