Claire Greaves
Claire Greaves speaks publically about her battle with mental illness through radio, TV, social media and a project with Fixers. Claire has fought anorexia alongside other mental health issues since childhood.

Entries by Claire Greaves

Body Image: Hating Myself

(4) Comments | Posted 11 March 2016 | (13:19)

My only respite at the moment is sleep. For those few precious hours each night I don't have to be intensely uncomfortable in my own skin. I can be in my dream away from the itching, bubbling sensations I get in my body. I'm really struggling with body image at...

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Why Do I Self-Harm?

(0) Comments | Posted 29 February 2016 | (16:52)

TRIGGER WARNING: Self-harm, suicide

I began cutting myself when I was 12 years old. At the time I was struggling with life. Friendships were difficult. Perfectionism was crippling and I just hated myself. I hated what I saw in the mirror. I hated the words that left my mouth. I...

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I Need You to Know That I Have a Personality Disorder

(12) Comments | Posted 27 February 2016 | (14:56)

I need you to know that I have a personality disorder, it is the diagnosis that I don't speak about publicly and rarely talk about to anybody because I'm scared that telling you what I have will make you think I am a bad person. I desperately need you to...

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What's It Like to Be Admitted to a Psychiatric Ward?

(0) Comments | Posted 26 September 2015 | (18:22)

At home I always thought that I needed my room to be in total darkness and complete silence in order for me to sleep but my time spent on psychiatric wards have taught me that I can sleep through anything. I can sleep through the torch being shone on me...

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Accepting the Label

(0) Comments | Posted 26 September 2015 | (17:38)

This is genuinely one of the most difficult things I have ever written about because it's the one label that I rip from my skin and pretend it isn't there. I really struggle to accept it as my diagnosis because of the stigma and shame surrounding it. I have Personality...

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There's Nowhere for Me to Go

(2) Comments | Posted 27 August 2015 | (00:00)

I haven't been well lately, my mood has crashed completely, the flashbacks are overwhelming and anorexia has been screaming at me. The past five weeks have been a downhill spiral of self harm, suicidal thoughts and no energy to do anything. Unfortunately it is also summer meaning that my psychologist,...

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Behind the Smile, Behind the Mask

(0) Comments | Posted 31 July 2015 | (10:12)

Sometimes speaking out about mental illness can be difficult. I find it easy to talk about recovery and when things are going well but it's not so easy to say that actually things aren't okay and I guess that's why I've been a bit quiet lately. My blog posts, tweets...

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You Said What About Mental Illness?

(0) Comments | Posted 3 July 2015 | (10:00)

"I am intrigued to know what kind of life lead to be so selfishly depressed. Deaths? Rape? Abuse? What exactly have you got to be so depressed about."

Selfishly depressed? Have I missed something in this society? See I thought an illness you have no control over has nothing to...

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The Media Need to Stop Ignoring Mental Health Discrimination

(3) Comments | Posted 27 June 2015 | (00:00)

If somebody makes a racist comment on national television then they normally lose their career over it. Discrimination is discrimination regardless of whether that is about colour of a person's skin or a person's disability. Discrimination is wrong on every level and yet discrimination around mental health seems to be...

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The Secret Side of Eating Disorders

(0) Comments | Posted 23 May 2015 | (21:29)

Trigger warning: descriptions of anorexia

My curtains are closed and the blinds are down. I'm home alone and sat on the sofa surrounded by bowls, plates, wrappers and crumbs. My stomach stretched and swollen, my cheeks covered in bite marks and I'm in a state of acute...

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The Blindfold of Mental Illness

(6) Comments | Posted 15 May 2015 | (00:00)

This week is Mental Health Awareness Week and something I would really like people to be aware of is the blindfold of mental illness. When I look back to the worst times in my mental illness it was like I was being blinded, almost like I couldn't even see my...

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A Letter to David Cameron

(0) Comments | Posted 12 May 2015 | (12:45)

Dear David Cameron,

I have a message for you now that you have been re-elected as prime minister.

I know that you are only a human being just like I am and I hope that my words might reach you and make a difference. A huge part of your focus...

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A Letter to Journalists

(1) Comments | Posted 9 May 2015 | (00:00)

Dear journalists,

I understand that you want an interesting story and that you want to grip your readers and keep them reading on. I get that okay but when it comes to reporting on mental health please realise how important it is to report responsibly. There is so much stigma...

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Suicide Is NOT Selfish

(14) Comments | Posted 4 May 2015 | (00:00)

Sometimes I think we are doing well with educating others about mental health, raising awareness and reducing stigma and then a suicide happens and I realise we have so very far to go. I like to think that we live in a compassionate and caring society but unfortunately we don't.

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Glimpses of Life

(0) Comments | Posted 25 April 2015 | (15:42)

Lying in bed in the psychiatric ward last weekend I felt both exhausted and frustrated with my illness. If you were to compare my mental illness to a broken leg then it would be like that bone completely breaking over and over again. It would be like going through the...

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How Am I? Honestly!

(0) Comments | Posted 20 April 2015 | (00:00)

Writing this is difficult, I am finding myself sitting here unable to type and desperately trying to think how I am. I am so used to answering that I am fine when people ask how I am but I'm also so used to trying to think positively and distract myself...

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How Are You? Honestly!

(1) Comments | Posted 10 April 2015 | (17:09)

"How are you?" is a question we are all asked on a daily basis. It seems to immediately follow the word "Hello" as though it is a plus one to the greeting and not an actual question requiring an actual answer. I know when I'm asked how I am I...

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I Cannot Erase My Existence and Therefore I am Going to Get Better

(0) Comments | Posted 9 April 2015 | (00:00)

The state of my current mental health is probably the worst yet. I guess I was bobbing along life and sometimes a big wave would come along and I would struggle for a few days and then I would go back to bobbing along. I was by no means in...

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Anorexia Is Stealing Me

(0) Comments | Posted 1 April 2015 | (12:42)

Trigger warning: anorexia

People ask me what anorexia is like, "So do you just not like eating then?" Anorexia has stolen me, it's barely about food most of the time, of course food thoughts consume my mind and eating brings anxiety, terror and guilt but there's far...

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Imprisoned By My Eating Disorder

(3) Comments | Posted 30 March 2015 | (00:00)

Trigger warning: anorexia, self-harm

"I'm fine" I keep saying. "I feel positive" flies out of my mouth, it's like I'm on repeat. I must be okay, I can't let people down but in reality I feel so trapped, so isolated, so alone. I am imprisoned by my eating...

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