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So You Want to be a Parent?

24/10/2014 15:36 BST | Updated 24/12/2014 10:59 GMT

My mother is a 'ground-up' type of person. She is like an iceberg. What you see is merely the tip, a lot goes on beneath the waterline to solidify the top that you see. She is a firm believer of substance, not form.

Thus, my mother had always told me that I had to learn to love cooking before becoming a mum. Not merely to learn to cook, but to learn to love cooking. Her rationale is learning to love cooking is not merely about putting food on the table, but cultivating a mindset where there is a genuine desire to nurture and care for another human being.

"Saying 'I love you' is easy. We can say it without too much effort, without any sacrifice," she would say. "But at the most basic level, feeding someone with the food that you have prepared with your hands and heart speaks more meaningfully."

My mother made a lot of comfort food, especially in the winter months. I complained about her tendency to over-cook. I chided her for using too much cream, too much cheese and too much butter. But I fly home like a homing pigeon to her sunny kitchen in Portsmouth, Hampshire, lured by sweet memories of sitting here in her kitchen, doing my homework, waiting for her simple food to be served.

My mother's food healed me, and slowly, as I grew into a young woman, I grew to love cooking, though it was not an intuitive thing for me to do. I was a physical, outdoorsy person, impatient and driven. Spending time in the kitchen was definitely not on my agenda. In my youth, I have always felt I had more important things to do in life than the menial task of cooking.

But slowly, there was a shift in my paradigm as I understood my mum's philosophy. It doesn't have to be cordon bleu. It doesn't have to be show-off food. It can simply be a bowl of creamy mashed potatoes; it can be a piping hot bowl of spaghetti. It can be hearty soup made from leftovers. It is just something that you have dedicated your time to giving someone; it is the embodiment of your intention to care for another person's wellbeing. It is like giving your energy to nurture someone else without the grand gestures or easy words.

When I lived in Jakarta, a man called Antonio Castellano cooked for me. He wasn't a professional cook, but a management consultant working for McKinsey & Company. His specialisation is the global energy industry, but he has an Uncle Sal who sends him Sicilian recipes from home. Unusual food that you couldn't get in an Italian restaurant in Jakarta, Singapore, Kuala Lumpur, or probably anywhere in Europe for that matter, except perhaps in Sicily. Spaghetti coated in anchovy oil and breadcrumbs, sprinkled with capers. I watched him cook for me, this diminutive blue-eyed Italian, and I finally understood the power of my mother's philosophy. I rather think I fell in love a little, just a little, for this is the first time a man has ever cooked for me.

I saw the beauty of food cooked with love through Antonio's giving. I morphed into someone who genuinely loves cooking. I began to smile and hum whenever I cooked. And in my late thirties, I went back to my mother to tell her that I finally understood what she meant about a love for cooking. I had met someone who showed me his love in this deep, honourable and beautiful way.

But my mother, she said, "You have to love gardening, if you want to genuinely love cooking."

I disliked gardening, though I have put in the hours as a teenager.

"Gardening is like raising children, Jack," she said to me. "You nurture a plant, watch it grow, and be pleasantly surprised by it each day. There is something to love about your plant each day. And most of all, it teaches you patience and acceptance."

"I don't see what it has to do with cooking," I said sulkily.

And my mother told me. Cooking is not about what you put on the table. The process starts long before coming to the stove. It is about feeling Nature, and being thankful for what we have been so abundantly blessed with. It is not a science, but a primal emotion. If we can translate that thankfulness into the food we cook, we create family consciousness.

"I don't know why cooking schools start with the fancy stuff," my mother mused. "It should all be about going to the garden, smelling the herbs, tasting the fruits, being familiar with the earth first. Not knives and pots and pans."

"Ma, I buy organic food," I sulked, as I dug the earth this summer at the vegetable patch. "It's good enough."

"Oh, Jack, put more energy into your digging!" She laughed gaily at me, watching me with love in her eyes. "We need good soil for the new plant we bought."

I frowned and sulked. She came to stand by me. "You need to get to the soil on the lower layers. "

With some difficulty, she knelt on the flowerbed beside me, and took the small spade from my hand. She began digging energetically, scooping the earth from the lower layers into the flowerpot.

"Jack, gardening is like parenting and grandparenting. We, the parents and grandparents, are the top layer. We have had our time. But the layers beneath, that's where all the top layer's nutrients have leached down to. We want that layer, because that's the best of us. See?"

I looked at her in amazement. Yes! That is the true gist of parenting - we pass our goodness down to the next layer, protecting it, nurturing it, for it is our continuity, our immortality. From here to the kitchen table, the circle of life. It's all related, in a magical way. Thank you, Ma, thank you.

"And Jack, no short cuts," my mother said with a small smile that carried the warmth of the whole sun in it. "Learn to enjoy gardening, love."

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First published in www.raisinghappystrongkids.com