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Drunk? Demonic? Deranged? Be a Writer!

Posted: 08/11/2012 00:58

A BBC news article has confirmed what so many might suspect: writers are nuts, or to put it more politely, "creativity is part of a mental illness, with writers particularly susceptible ... Writers had a higher risk of anxiety and bipolar disorders, schizophrenia, unipolar depression and substance abuse, the Swedish researchers at the Karolinska Institute found. They were almost twice as likely as the general population to kill themselves."

(Michelle Roberts, health editor, BBC News online)

Great.

I have published my first book. So apparently all I can look forward to is going crazy, having my mood go up and down like a yo-yo, becoming delusional, snorting cocaine and dying young'ish.

The older I get the more it seems that those who excel in certain areas seem to make up for it by throwing themselves straight down the plughole in certain others. Jimmy Savile's once-fine legacy of fundraising for Stoke Mandeville and making children's dreams come true now seems like a smokescreen erected by a dirty old man, behind which he preyed on the young and the vulnerable. Lance Armstrong, who fought back from cancer to win the Tour de France seven times, should have been an icon of inspiration to others, but has instead been exposed as a serial cheat and a bully. He has been charged by the United States Anti-Doping Agency with doping and trafficking of drugs, and is likely to be stripped of his Tour titles.

Nor are the feet of our revered leaders free from clay.

Back in 1996, Lisa Marshall of Glasgow Caledonian University proved that psychopaths and politicians had many similar character traits, and her report was received with no great surprise by Parliament. Lewis Moonie, then Labour MP for Kirkcaldy, wryly commented that, "nothing I have seen in the Commons contradicts these findings."

So it seems fundraisers are fiends, sportsmen are stoned on success and steroids, our current frontbenchful of MPs could be swapped for the inmates of Carstairs State Hospital without there being any discernable difference in the way Britain is run and writers are bouncing around gaily with bipolar disorders.

But wait a minute, amidst all these torrents of eccentricity and madness lies the fact that I wrote a story, found my muse, virtually got a vampire for a flatmate (long story!), got that mythic connection with a character writers dream of (that was the vampire) and made friends with a film star into the bargain.

Why am I not in Carstairs State Hospital, tied to a bed and gibbering away happily? Why, even in the midst of a torrent of creativity flowing like a river in spate, was I completely free of anxiety, schizophrenia, depression or the desire for death? Why was my vampire flatmate more like a good companion than a demon bent on sin?

I've never written while drunk in my life, I've never taken drugs and I'm reasonably certain I've never killed myself. On the other hand, I once heard that after writing In Cold Blood, the writer Truman Capote became a recluse, turned up drunk at talk shows and died in a pool of his own vomit.

There is a fine line between creativity and obsession, between fantasy and delusion, but I seem to be able to walk the line and turn out the work without any ill effect.

Could this be because of the atypical wiring of my autistic brain?

I have a theory that autistic brains may be better able than those of neuro-typicals (the majority of the population) to handle the ups and downs of the creative impulse. One of autism's few universal symptoms is a tendency to be artistic and creative. It is possible that the design of the autistic brain's wiring makes it more able than the mind of a neuro-typical (NT) to accommodate that vital spark which drives the artist to perform.

I've no easy answer with which to finish this article. I sit down to write and stuff happens. Afterwards I put my feet up and enjoy the sunset. Around me, in the streets of the city, I hear the sound of breaking glass as tormented neuro-typical writers hurl themselves to their doom.

I cannot understand them and they cannot understand me.

James Christie is the author of Dear Miss Landau. He was diagnosed with Asperger Syndrome, a mild form of autism, at the age of 37 in 2002. He lives and works in Glasgow.

 
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James Christie
03:44 PM on 11/12/2012
Hi Brian

It all depends on perspective. As Aspergers etc. are in the minority, we can be perceived as odd (Sheldon Coopers, if you will) by the majority (neuro-typicals or NTs) who consider it normal to go around trying to do six things at once, thinking emotionally first and logically often a long way afterwards, crashing economies and starting meaningless wars.

In fact, as it is (so far as I am aware) a fact that Aspergers in general think logically first whereas NTs in general don't, and if you agree that emotional thinking is in the end often unreasonable, then there is actually a certain logic in the thought that the majority of the world is indeed a bit crazy. Us Aspergers are just a bit odd and obsessive, as my vampire flatmate said to me!
06:38 PM on 11/08/2012
Very interesting.

A theory? Artistry*, perhaps particularly writing, requires absorbing both 'big picture' and details of life, including emotional aspects. My limited knowledge of autism suggests an ability to observe emotional states without connecting to them ... getting lost in them. I wonder if some NT's who are capable of seeing the big picture and detail of life, including the emotional angles, sometimes have a harder time detaching emotionally from what they see. If so, that could be incredibly painful.

For example: a writer lives in a world that exists in their imagination - ideally with both broad and detailed understanding of how it works. This world is also peopled by characters who are impacted in varying ways by the nature and events of this world.

NT's who are not altogether mature, emotionally stable, or who are in a temporary troubled state (grief, for example) when composing, may (like many actors) have trouble separating themselves from the character’s experiences and emotional reactions. They may have trouble witnessing this world instead of participating in it? Would someone with autism have an easier time just observing the world?

All of this is conjecture on my part with admittedly limited experience with creating and autism. I hope all will forgive my ignorance on these subjects if I have offended. That is not my intention.

*I differentiate artists and creators. Many people create in forms that do not require emotional attachment, such as architects.
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James Christie
03:36 PM on 11/12/2012
Thank you very much (I'm James Christie) and I appreciate your comment a great deal. I'd stress that I'm not necessarily an expert on autism, I merely have the condition but I would say that, based on my experience, your theory is about right. I was in an exceedingly emotional state when writing "Drusilla's Roses" (the story which led to "Dear Miss Landau") but at the same time didn't get so drawn in that I was in any danger of becoming reclusive (well, no more than usual, anyway...), turning up drunk at talk shows (I'd be happy just to get an invite) or dying in a pool of my own vomit.

There did indeed seem to be a firewall in my brain which stopped anything like this dead. A bit like the days when I was a rare book librarian in a stately home, and the part of my brain obsessed with cataloguing antiquarian novels to an incredibly pernickety degree of accuracy was kept firmly and naturally away from the rest of my humorous and self-deprecating personality - no danger of my turning into Sheldon Cooper from "The Big Bang Theory..."

As some of my comments were derived from my book, "Dear Miss Landau (Chaplin Books)," I might suggest you have a look at it if you are interested as it covers the subject in more detail.

And if you're a fan of "Buffy the Vampire Slayer," you might get a bit of a surprise...