I've always been a little weary about being too vocal in regards to how shit I'm feeling while I am pregnant. I know there are people out there struggling to conceive or who simply cannot have children so please know this blog is not intended to upset or offend anybody. I've seen celebrities and public figures get flamed for expressing how they really feel. Truth is, like me, they're not out to upset anybody.
I would never go as far as saying I hate being pregnant, hate is a strong word. I just have a problem with the way it is portrayed in the media and in the movies.
I wish women would be more open and honest when it comes to pregnancy.
For me, pregnancy sucked a bag of dicks.
If you had the perfect pregnancy and enjoyed every moment, I envy you. I turn into a total fucking psycho. Am a bawling mess one minute, completely irrational the next and then in fits of rage within seconds. Hormones, fucking hormones! Sometimes I feel like I need to walk around with an 'approach with caution' sign around my neck. I have to bite my tongue while skimming my Facebook feed and seeing the utter bullshit that is often being shared/posted.
Being pregnant IS an exciting time, you're growing life - you're going to have a baby! But your body goes 'fuck you'.
You see, the truth about pregnancy is: every pregnancy is different.
The first trimester took me by surprise, I don't know if I'm just ignorant, or if no one talks about it openly and honestly. I was tired, so fucking tired - all of the time. In fact, I still am even in the second trimester. Not just tired, exhausted. I am puffing and out of breath from walking up six stairs. I am so light-headed and dizzy ALL of the time, I would often need to just take a moment and sit. I had the worst heartburn with Baxter from probably the 3rd trimester until he was out, nothing helped it and it was so bad to the point I wanted to vomit. My boobs feel like they've been injected with quick setting concrete. Don't even get me started on the excruciating back pain.
Everybody tells you it gets better after the first trimester. Mmmm, yeah, I guess - you don't feel as shit but you still feel pretty shit.
Tired. Exhausted. Sore.
Here's just a few things I can think of off the top of my head, I know with my current baby brain I will forget a bunch but I will no doubt remember over the coming months:
- I can't see my vagina anymore. In fact, I can't see anything down there and I'm not even sure I want to
- Heartburn, like the fiery pits of hell rising from your stomach
For me, I lost complete control of my body, this little human had completely taken it over and sucked every last little bit of nutrients I had.
Coming into round 2 I am so much better prepared. My body never bounced back after #1 so how much damage can #2 do?
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