Disappointed, sad, frustrated. Confused, concerned and a bit shell-shocked. With a strong sense you're living a bad dream, you wonder what must Her Majesty the Queen be thinking and feeling today?
The glistening eyes and the humming noise of London hasn't disappeared. Pulling out the gold medal, often from my grubby pocket - I see children's and adult's eyes light up. It takes them back to London 2012; a period in time where perceptions of disability changed for the better. People saw what can be done, rather than can't.
I was lucky enough to visit Queen Elizabeth Park in Stratford for National Paralympic Day 2014. A celebration of all things Paralympic, this annual festival saw the stars of London 2012 returning to the stadiums to compete once again, and in the case of the races in the London Aquatics Centre, take part in the first international swimming competition that the centre has seen since London 2012.
What happens if England win the World Cup next year? That's right; as the men's World Cup enters a four-year hiatus, the women's World Cup is still to come... Women's sport makes up just 2% of all sports coverage in the UK. It's a shocking statistic, but I hope it's something that can change over time... There is an appetite for the game and in some countries women's football is huge.
Sport is one of the universal languages which connect people and cultures... Sport is primal, basic, essential and everywhere... Sport and great sporting events are a massive draw. But the best of all is when sport is shared alongside culture. And here Glasgow excelled.
With sell-out crowds, a smooth operation and the absence of any notable hiccup, organisers deserve applause for delivering a near flawless spectacle... No sooner had the closing ceremony started that it became clear Glasgow had breathed new life into what was considered an ailing event.
The discussion is indeed a positive move. But I think there will be hardly anyone, including those who are constantly being sniped at (Muslims), who would disagree with British values that are universal. ..
"Man it was tough. At least with the handbike I could breath. It was literally like a pan fire... It was one of the toughest things I have done on wheels, either three or four." Alex Zanardi returned to Brands Hatch last weekend, the scene of his London 2012 Paralympic glory.
This week I attended the Commonwealth Observance Day service, where I was privileged to hear from Lord Coe, Tanni Grey-Thompson and Malala Yousafzai. The theme of the event centred around team as the Commonwealth builds up to the 2014 games.
Obviously it would have taken time to really create success at the top level and this is not to say that GB Basketball would have become the new British Cycling but UK Sport, by narrowing their focus on short-term success, seemed to have missed the lessons that recent history and success could have taught them.
The fashion industry has artfully latched onto our fitness obsession. It all started in 2004 when Stella McCartney designed her first collection for Adidas. Her collection was soon after followed by a collaboration between Puma and Alexander McQueen.
At the moment, Rebecca Adlington is in the jungle but the reception she has got is a good show of the pressure athletes are under. Where the male athletes have women drooling over their six packs, I feel as a female athlete, you are constantly being judged on your body.
Which two cities are more connected than you'd think? London and Paris or New York? Nope, the surprise winner when you look at Loughborough University's impressively-named Information-rich Visualisation of Dense Geographical Networks figure 1c is... London and Tokyo.
With London 2012 slowly receding into the past, and the next wave of global sporting events such as the 2014 World Cup in Brazil and the Glasgow Commonwealth Games imminent, it's time to consider the state of ambush, or guerrilla, marketing in the sports world.
Day two of the 9th World Islamic Economic Forum (WIEF) has passed - and delegates are loving London. But what 'brand' should we be pushing - cities, countries, or islands?
I am passionate about disability issues and my trip highlighted to me how much more work we have to do in 2013 to keep them in the spotlight. Disabled people should not need or want for anything relating to their medical condition, especially the very basic things to help us through the day.