It's funny how a small stick with wee on can change your life so dramatically!... well that, and having sex without wearing 'waterproofs. Obviously I didn't wee on the stick, I was tempted though as I'd heard this myth that if you do, and it changes colour or something, it's to do with a faulty prostate.
It's my husband who is helping me up and down the stairs, in and out of the shower, cooking every meal, washing every dish, helping me up from the sofa, being chief chauffeur, doing all the shopping, handing me Baby Boy when I can't bend and lift, settling the toddler next to me for cuddles whilst trying to mind my scar.
"I don't think my dad ever loved me." This is the statement I hear my clients repeating time after time. It's irrelevant who says it, men or women, although it is more common coming from women, given that an unhealthy relationship with their dad, i.e. 'Key Male Figure', tends to reflect in their relationships
England is on the verge of breaking into full spring at the moment; some trees are in full bloom, some are only halfway through while others are only just starting to show signs of life. Seeing the resilience and beauty of nature is reassuring and feels somehow symbolic of how my dad is willing me and my family to move through our still overwhelming grief.
It's these kinds of challenges that the creative industries have thrived upon for decades: when resource is low and the need for creativity is high. But with less time for old-fashioned R&D, many feel under pressure and don't want to upset the status quo where sustainability isn't currently part of the conversation.
From the 1966 graphics department of the BBC to transforming the look of contemporary broadcast news with CNN's redesign, gallery founder Graham McCallum takes time to reflect on a five decade career, his work for iconic Jackanory and Blackadder, the genius of Saul Bass and how "fresh ideas come from engaging with the real world, not Google".
Once upon a time the 'S' word - sustainability - was about as relevant to business as a fork in a sugar bowl. At best a box to be ticked; at worst seen as a serious impediment to the pursuit of profit. But the world is changing. Look at the business news and you'll see the global heads of big businesses uttering that 'S' word with increasing frequency.
The low point probably came several months ago when I raced upstairs, put on my best suit and pretended to go off to work. It was 5pm and the children were due back from school. The truth that I wasn't able to tell them was that I had lost my job 72 hours earlier and was acting out this increasingly ridiculous charade partly out of shame, embarrassment and, well, I just didn't know what to say.