Perhaps the stolen camaraderie led me into my chosen profession - emergency medicine. The siege mentality, punishing rotas and huge reliance on teamwork made me feel like I belong somewhere. Sadly with the unrelenting workload and no sign of empathy from up high, I can feel myself drifting. For now, the search continues.
Europe is facing an obesity crisis of epidemic proportions, one that threatens to overwhelm the EU's already struggling economies and place a tremendous burden on its healthcare systems. Data from the World Health Organisation (WHO) indicates that the proportion of those who are overweight or obese will rise substantially in the EU over the next decade if the issue is not tackled.
These people can be of any age, ethnicity or gender. They always put someone else's needs and welfare before their own, often without recognition or praise. Many have little chance to socialise, which can lead to isolation; and they have an overwhelming sense of responsibility. Who am I talking about? The UK's 'hidden workforce' of unpaid carers.
In the debate about antibiotic resistance it's often said that the implications are too big to get a handle on - people say it's something that should perhaps only concern scientists or politicians - but along with an absolutely justified call for global action there are personal stories and personal actions we must all take.
As I type these words ballot papers are being printed and sent out across the country to junior doctors in preparation for a proposed strike that now seems all but inevitable. This strike, the first of its kind for 40 years, represents a catastrophic breakdown in the relationship between the Department of Health and the medical profession.
So, what is the latest health threat that doctors are warning the public about in the UK at present? No, we haven't just identified a new strain of Ebola, tomatoes are still good for you, and disappointingly strawberry daiquiris are yet to contribute to your five-a-day. The newest threat to your health, is ironically the health secretary Jeremy Hunt himself.
So what are the doctors saying behind closed doors? They are saying that they have had enough. They are declaring that they will unify against the government and that they will fight. They are warning their children not to follow their career path, and considering their options very carefully also. Many have been tempted by warmer climates, or a career change all together. They are adamant that they will not back down, and that the government has picked the wrong group of professionals to attack.
Just a few weeks ago, news broke that Gill Pharaoh - a healthy 75 year old retired nurse - had chosen to end her own life at a Swiss suicide clinic. Whatever your stance on euthanasia or assisted suicide, for me the story raised another very important question. Can our health service truly support an aging population?
We have seen glimpses of innovation agility across the system - last year just 3% of GPs in England offered patients' online appointments, repeat prescriptions and access to summary information in medical records. Now this stands at 97%. A decade ago, it cost millions to sequence a genome, now it's less than £1,000.
Fundamentally I believe that we as patients must understand our responsibility to respect the free access we have to our GP, practice nurse, midwife or other primary care based professional. We expect their professionalism and access to them in a timely manner - it's not a lot to ask that we should also keep our side of the bargain too.