The year was 2005. I was 15 and in my 10th year of schooling. This was the year I threw up for the first time from tequila shots, first awkwardly kissed a girl at a house party, and I was diagnosed with testicular cancer...
It was nine years ago today that I said goodbye to him for that last time, after making a difficult decision to get on my scheduled flight from Osaka back to Manchester. I did that knowing that I would never see him again. The knowledge of how lucky he was to have her and her care for him is my comfort. And that's all I need.
So there I was - beer, sofa, TV, and indulging that habit guaranteed to draw looks of disgust and sighs of despair from the fairer sex, but understanding nods of approval from my fellow males. What I didn't realise, was that it was my life in my hands, not just my balls.
It's no secret I work out five to six days a week to strength train. I have tried supplements on and off over the years. I have also had an eating disorder a decade ago. One thing I am sure on is that supplements are not a substitute for good old fashioned food.
I was deeply concerned to read the proposal by Dr Kevin Smith last week, that young men should consider freezing their sperm, around the age of 18 with the promise of artificial fertility even in old age.
Eating disorders are a complex subject that not everyone knows about unless by first hand experience. Professionals on the front line are key in supporting people living with eating disorders of any walk of life. Getting the help they need early on is imperative for long-term recovery.
Dads Matter UK is suggesting that the health service needs to develop a process for the screening and detecting of PND in fathers. As many fathers, the figures suggest, suffer with PND post birth of the child.
Sex and relationship education is for now and fertility education is for the future. Conception and contraception are two sides of the same coin. We need to empower our young people with education on fertility, so that they can stand a better chance of falling pregnant when they choose to. Education empowers.
Let's be honest. No matter how much we all try to pretend to love hitting the gym, most of us (save a superhuman few) find exercising a complete and utter chore. That's why we're dedicating the entire month of April to fitspiration, where we hope to inspire our readers (and ourselves) to get fit and embrace sport by instilling positivity and realistic goal setting.
We have to think carefully about the messages we are sending to young men. If we show them that we only think negatively about them, we risk alienating them at just the time when they face the pressures of growing up.
Unfortunately, in this case a process which is of huge public interest has gone on behind closed doors rather than adopting the transparent and inclusive approach that was promised by politicians and civil servants alike. It fuels suspicion that the decision was made on a muddle of flawed criteria.
Too often, eating disorders in men is taken less seriously and 'novel' given the ratio between men and women suffering meaning men are the minority. Men suffering who are clearly isolated and marginalised need not have their gender questioned or jokes made about their non-existent periods.
Scientists too - especially those whose work is more about understanding prostate cancer biology than developing new treatments - can sometimes feel like the clinical sterility of their lab is a long way from the living, breathing men behind the numbers. These men, when you stop to think about it, are the reason they get out of bed in the morning.
I acknowledge the annoyance that some of you might have with men. But what I do find interesting in all the irritation directed at the male sex is the shrinking space available for men to just be themselves.
Only last week in the clubhouse bar after my Saturday game of football, I mentioned that I was going away for an overnight spa-break with 'the Mrs' and instead of being greeted with howls of derision, I was grilled by a couple of my team mates about where we going.
Every man has an idea of how long he should 'last' in order to satisfy his partner - from a few minutes to 20 minutes or longer in some men's minds. One study found that, on average, penetration lasted five and a half minutes.