I always planned to make a programme about the dark times, but I don't think I realised it'd take me five years to feel strong enough to do it. Now, after so many supportive and heartfelt messages, I'm glad I did.
How can you tell if this is a normal part of growing up through the primary years, usual adolescent development, or an emerging mental health problem? Well at this stage, you can't, but what you can do is take the changes seriously, because if it is the start of a mental health difficulty, then the sooner your child gets help the better.
I continued feeding her for 19 months and 2 weeks, I can tell you that on day 2, when my nipples started bleeding and I fed her in absolute agony, I would never have believed that would happen. I had a love-hate relationship with breastfeeding and here's why.
It is so important to begin teaching children environmental stewardship from a very young age. To know is to love, and whilst they are still tiny, children still have the eyes to see magic in its full glory. This is the best time to fall in love with Nature and understand its complexities.
I often wonder what happens to other parents going through this horrific journey without the kind of support I had from my mum, partner, family and friends. What happens if you don't have someone trustworthy to be able to lean on, and cry tears of anger, tears of pain, tears of happiness, tears of exhaustion? Where does their emotional support come from?
I realised I had a certain amount of bandwidth as a working mum, and I'd run out. Some mums may have run out way before me, others farther down the road. But I was beginning to understand my bandwidth and the message was clear: I couldn't have it all.
As much as I love sharing my photos and having a platform that is exclusively for that - it just makes me feel bad. It makes me feel like I'm the only one who has days where the only food consumed is half a yoghurt and a handful of raisins. Days when you stop for 30 seconds to down your lukewarm coffee and you find your fast-as-a-whippet daughter has climbed the stairs and is upstairs roaming free.
There are no two ways about it, babies are dumb. Before they can even move, as soon as they are able to grasp things, they enjoy putting themselves in mortal danger. They are not to be trusted for a second.
We all worry about whether or not we're a good parent. You only have to go onto instagram to see the hoards of inspirational quotes proclaiming 'you're good enough', to realise we're a little bit obsessed. Are we doing enough? Are we giving them enough?
There were many things I swore I would never do before I had a baby. Pretty much all of those ideals have long since fallen by the wayside, along with any last vestiges of sympathy for the physical and emotional comfort of the child free in public spaces.
In recent years, we've found that where parents tell their kids that, for this party, they should choose to invite, say, six or eight friends, it is unlikely that - and unusual for - the kids to pick the little girl with DS.
In 2016 I would have liked to have thought that the Equality Act 2010 would have ensured there are more adjustments being made nationally to ensure that families like mine are no longer being excluded.
In effect, you have two babies who are completely dependent. Needing to be fed, dressed, changed. Two babies in nappies, who nap, cry, whinge, whine, poop, need to be held and cuddled, soothed and settled. Who can't talk. communication is a guessing game.
Before I became a parent, I had certain ideas of what kind of a mother I wanted to be. Those ideas were fairly vague initially, but nonetheless I had a list as long as my arm of things that I knew I would NEVER do... and then I had kids.
We're not talking about a simple car commute, here. We're talking about a half-hour ride on a public bus through a busy city, followed by a long walk down a very steep hill with one-year-old who refuses to get into a push chair. Getting to work is almost as exhausting as actually working. So here's what I've learned so far...
have suggested that parents should make themselves aware of the safety risks for younger teens playing the game. And this is the same message for the plethora of Internet crazes that we see emerging at regular intervals. What can seem like a lighthearted good laugh to start off with can often get out of hand.