I've found parenting difficult and I'm certainly not the earth mother I had imagined myself to be. I've had PND, had a breakdown and have come out the other side, but I can confidently say I've been a good mum, caring mum, loving mum and my children are flourishing. I want another baby, not yet, but in a few years' time and this baby will complete our family as five.
Oh how I wish I was one of the ladies that "glow" with health and go swimming and jogging every day, filled with energy from the beauty of the new life within. But I am not. Maybe one day soon, yes, hopefully.
Unfortunately, getting pregnant may seem like an impossible task for some, with 1 in 6 people in the UK struggling with fertility issues. This can lead to stress and emotional issues for many, making the chances of getting pregnant slimmer.
I was so scared about the possibilities of bringing a child into this world and how I would cope as a parent. What kind mum did I want to be? How would I parent? Would I try and breastfeed? I found all the information from parenting books, NCT antenatal groups and other people's advice overwhelming and confusing.
Her assessment that maternity leave is one continuous succession of feeding and bottom wiping is inaccurate and must be addressed if we are to value parental leave as something which has a benefit to society.
For many individual's procreation is simply the result of sexual intercourse. However, this has not always been the case throughout the course of history. In ancient times it was believed procreation was controlled by certain rituals and spirits.
We as women are flooded by pictures of 'perfection'. As mothers we are met with comments such as 'when are you planning to lose that baby weight?' and images of celeb mums in size six leather hot pants two days after having their children.
Now evidence shows that the food a pregnant woman chooses to eat, herself, may impact her future child's behaviour. A recent study of over 300 children, who have been extensively researched over 16 years, has suggested that those with ADHD (attention and behavioural problems) were more likely to have been born to mothers who had a poor diet in pregnancy.
So might the series on Maternal Obesity achieve nothing more than heaping an extra burden of responsibility on mothers, calling them to solve yet another of today's problems and making them feel guilty if they can't do so? I sincerely hope not.
There is no question that a miscarriage or the death of a baby are very difficult subjects to talk about. We don't like talking about death let alone the death of a baby. However it is only by talking about miscarriage, stillbirth and neo-natal death that we can start to address the underlying issues and causes and importantly ensure that the appropriate bereavement care is in place to support those who sadly lose a baby.
Those of us that are will probably know that pregnancy and infant loss awareness week is held annually from 9th - 15th October. I remember discovering this as I miscarried 27th September 2013 and the following week I thought it was apt that I should see so many reminders on Facebook of miscarriage.
Like all mums-to-be, I have worried about the health of my baby during this pregnancy, and my last, so I understand it can be difficult to know what health precautions are the right ones to take, especially when so much information is being offered to you.
A common misconception is that doulas only attend home-births but as doulas are concerned with empowering women they usually attend all types of birth; home-birth, hospital birth, elective c-section and any others.
Now we have the internet and one press of "return" on a search engine can bring up all manner of first-hand horror experiences and second-rate advice from women who have watched the box set of Call the Midwife and now consider themselves an armchair Chummy Browne.
Every disgusting stretch-mark is actually a forever connection to the child I grew and a mark of respect for the ones who didn't make it. Every bit of disgusting over hang covering up my mum pants is actually a story of good times, eating and drinking with friends, sofa buffets of cheese and crisps with my husband and birthday cake for all the years and years celebrating my own life and those that I'm blessed to have around me.
Last nights BBC2 documentary 'A World Without Down's Syndrome?' has already raised a lot of questions before it was even aired and although my son doesn't have Downs syndrome it is still something which affected me during my pregnancy and the issues surrounding it continue to affect me today.