Part of me is scared of it because, shit, how do I keep it going? What happens with that extra pressure? And what if it all crumbles around me and all I'm left with is a broken heart and a reclamation notice for my shiny new speedboat? And then part of me wants it because, shit, what's the alternative? To not be successful?
I'm sure that many of us have experienced a point in our lives where we've became aware of the need to start making some positive changes. We may feel ready to commit to formal New Year's Resolutions or simply say 'today's the time to focus on spring cleaning our habits, friends, relationships and ultimately our lives'.
New age spiritual language has become a bog of well meaning terms that in effect mean whatever you need or want them to need, or, in fact, nothing. As much as we all want to be the light, find our truth and let it all go, whilst mantra-ing our ass down to the local yoga dojo, it's sometimes not that simple.
It doesn't matter who you are, or where you are from, there is one common experience in life we all share. We will at some point face a feeling of failure. It might be losing a job, getting divorced, failing an exam or falling out with a friend but at one time or another we all have to face disappointment and find a way to recover from it.
I thought, "I'm shit scared of this happening to me. But those people must have had the same fear". So I thought: what if I started thinking the same way? Saying "yes" to that little child inside me that wanted to dream big, whilst also not falling down a manhole that some busy worker has left uncovered.
Endometriosis has been at my side for 20 years, chronic fatigue for a decade, and fibromyalgia has joined the party more recently. Rather than be held hostage by symptoms which can sometimes be crippling, I am aware that my business successes have my circumstances to thank, in part, for my ability to succeed.