I feel under siege, everything feels like an emergency from the fear we're on the cusp of a World War to the fact I missed my dentist appointment and he's going to charge me for it. Why am I so strung out? I'm sure in the past I wasn't this panicked...
So what's the big deal, why do I and why should you care so much? Well to be honest, I can't go into much detail because I don't want to spoil even the smallest thing. Scandal was recommended to myself when just two episodes had aired.
Despite the fact I made my short but sweet return to the house on Tuesday to effectively stir things up within an eventful 60 seconds, this week proved to be a little more interesting than previous since my departure.
While the watershed does usefully remind us that there is offensive and harmful material on our screens after 9.00pm, with the challenge posed by the internet and on demand TV is the watershed past its sell by date?
It might have only been 10 days since my eviction from the Big Brother house but somehow it already feels like a lifetime ago I lived in there.
Something that continues to frustrate many of us in the industry, are the media's laziness in only plucking out and promoting the same ''diverse'' young talent, over and over again as if only one exists out there. One young man that's making his moves both in front of the airwaves as behind is my old MTV presenter Melvin Odoom...
Perhaps the most enlightening bit of action we see in GoT that truly exemplifies the challenges of being an interpreter is when for Daenerys Targaryen faces the Good Masters of Astapor.
The only dilemma is that this time never comes. As the unwatched programmes you've saved gradually mount up, you realise that you only have 5% of space left. This leaves you with the excruciating predicament of what to delete.
Tony Hall has recognised that this model is unsustainable, old fashioned and just wrong. In an increasingly fragmented media world none of us can rely on audience brand loyalty, we have to always do the very best we can.
I'm not picky about what kind of job I do. It is my dream to host the reunion show, but I am willing to take a lesser position until you can see what I am capable of. I could write the little sound bites for the opening credits.
The Secretary star joined me in central London to discuss The Honourable Woman - her most challenging role - as well as London life and future plans with her actor husband, Peter Sarsgaard.
I have just left the Young Vic in London where the Act for Change project took place. It's started after actor Danny Lee Wynter watched a trailer from ITV for their impeding TV releases and saw all white characters and decided along with his partners, a group of actors of all colours genders and ages, that enough is enough and something had to be done.
I couldn't ignore blogging about mangoes with all the drama surrounding banning the import of mangoes into the UK. For anyone who knows me of course you'll know that I couldn't live without out them!
After all the comings and goings of the last few weeks, finally a moment to write properly about Bob Blakeley. Within two months of meeting him I had signed him and recorded his album Performance which is proudly released on Dramatico records on 19 May. If it's been a whirlwind for me you can imagine what it must have been for him...
Despite the snobbery, soaps attract dedicated followings. A full cross-section of society, who will watch any story with which they are presented, no matter how uncomfortable. On a daily basis, topics like euthanasia, gender identification, murder, rape and domestic abuse are brought directly into homes around the country.
Meeting the unluckiest woman in Madagascar changed my views on motherhood forever. Despite standing almost 6ft tall, Carolin ducks her eyes when she smiles, shyness getting the better of her. She hides her inner steel. She lost everything because she refused to abandon her children. She is the mother of twins: three sets of twins.