I can't control it with pills or therapy or positive thinking because I have no power over the causes of it. The causes are the outside world. Trump presidency, rise of the far right, Brexit, Tories chipping away at the NHS, the fact I'll never own a home. None of these things are my fault and yet they are making me colossally depressed.
The news that the only exam board in England that still offers an A level in Art History has decided to drop the subject is a wake-up call to anyone in Britain who cares about culture. Since 1999 the number of students taking the subject has halved - from roughly 2,000 to less than 1,000 - partly because ever fewer schools teach it.
According to a report released by National Fraud & Cyber Crime Reporting Centre, students in the UK's universities are being hit by a new wave of phishing emails that claim to offer a scholarship or an educational grant. The phishing email takes them to a fake website where they are deceived into revealing their personal information such as bank details.
While I don't want to encourage ambitious graduates to back-flip into my office in full clown garb, I'm always impressed when a job applicant chooses to demonstrate, rather than describe, what they can offer as an employee. Digital savvy, proactivity and creativity have huge appeal to employers, and showcasing them online is a smart thing to do.
We became ever-so-slightly smug. Somewhat foolishly, we let ourselves believe that we were right. Balancing university and pregnancy had been the hardest part; everything now was just an easy routine. It was reinforced when I graduated with a First Class degree, and Daf graduates this year with a 2:1.
In the early hours of Thursday 18 June, 2015, CCTV footage taken at my University of Cambridge College accommodation block shows me leaving through the gate. I am running down the street to my boyfriend's house, terrified, barefoot, dressed only in a t-shirt and underwear. Following a sports club party, I had been followed to my room, undressed against my consent and raped.
Education; it's great. But sadly it overvalues a very narrow range of skills and not only ignores but devalues and invalidates others. My own daughter does some spectacular work which shows enthusiasm, creative thought and aptitude, but because she's one of those people who never can seem to think in straight lines her work does not tick the right boxes to get marks.
So yes: it is time for universities to do some serious reviews on what they offer to large segments of their students. But when one looks at the bigger picture rather than individual cases, studying at higher education institutions does remain a good investment in all fields when it comes to judging the return on students' investment.