We've all experienced doubts, worries and anxiety; it's normal. Whatever it is that worries you and makes you anxious, it can be an annoying distraction that makes you feel uncomfortable. But too often, anxiety can make you physically unwell and leave you unable to think about anything else whatsoever.
Some people even feel that by worrying, they are somehow protecting themselves against the feared drop coming; they have learned that most things they worry about don't come to pass, so fear that if they take their eye off the ball and stop worrying, they will allow a calamity to creep in and take them by surprise.
I had found myself panicking and dreading it all. For no reason other than the way I was handling balancing my long term pain with trying to be the person I want people to think I am - a sassy PR with a penchant for gin and tonic and not a care in the world, basically taking fake it till you make it a wee bit too far until I knew something had to give.