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Sprinkle Salt On The Slug Of Self-Doubt

09/03/2017 13:24

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"Sheesh, you're looking old today, girlfriend!"
"You've really shoehorned yourself into those skinny jeans, eh fatty?"
"I wouldn't bother applying for that job mate, you'd never get it."

With friends like that, who needs enemies, huh ladies? Only these are not the words of a two-faced mate, a frenemy who offers soothing words of support when we're down whilst secretly feeling a certain frisson of schadenfreude. Oh no, this is something far more harmful, crippling us on a daily basis. These are words we say to ourselves. The inner voice sabotaging our everyday actions, personal development and general happiness.

Of course it's good to have an inner voice when it comes to conscience, intuition, instinct. You need to question the wisdom of your actions, have a quiet word with yourself now and again. But what if the inner dialogue between you and your party-pooper psyche becomes more of a battle of wills, a slanging match? One in which the running commentary of negativity often wins?

It's time to pull yourself up.

It's time to sprinkle salt on the slug of self-doubt.

As women, we're adept at cheerleading others - encouraging them through the peaks and troughs of life, whilst simultaneously wrestling our own inner critic. But in order to be at our best and get the most out of life, we need to cut ourselves some slack, body-slam that inner bitch and see the good in ourselves, too.

You know those days when everything's going well and you're buzzing with excitement - say, the last day at work before a long-awaited holiday? You're smiling, the day flows, your mood is contagious and all is right in your world, the inner voice cheerfully humming along to your tune. Even the mounting pile in your in-tray or an irritated customer can't shake your merriment.

Wouldn't you love to bottle that lighter-than-air feeling to save for those dark days, the ones where you wake up to pelting rain with a stiff neck, a black mood and are telling yourself it's going to be "one of those days" before you've even got past the front door?

With practise, I'm told, there is a way. The first part is awareness: recognising when you're self-sabotaging, then consciously doing something positive to change your mindset, be it exercise, listening to uplifting music, meeting a friend or immersing yourself in a hobby you're passionate about (why do you think I write?).

There will always be tough days, but they will be far easier with a Tigger bouncing about in your head, rather than a downcast Eeyore. I know from personal experience that if you cannot love yourself, it will become nigh-on impossible to love anyone else: sadness permeates every pore, wrecking your health and ruining relationships. You're constantly on the edge, a tightly coiled spring, and the smallest perceived slight will make you snap. It's a miserable way to live.

So try telling yourself you can. Put yourself out there. If it doesn't work, whatever it is, at least you tried. When you're feeling happy in yourself, you have spare happiness to pass on. You really do get what you give. If you speak sharply to someone, it's hardly surprising that you get the exact same tone back. If you're calm, honest, humble, others respond in kind.

If someone compliments you, a simple "thanks!" will suffice. Don't question it or deflect the praise by shrugging it off, embarrassed, babbling something to the contrary. Absorb it's warmth like rays of summer sunshine on your face and use the energy that comes from it to spur you on.

Having accepted the compliment, pay it forward. If someone looks great, tell them. Praise someone for a job well done, or message someone you admire to let them know. When you're in a good mood, people are attracted to you, which in turn boosts you further. All these little sparks of positive energy will have a cumulative effect until suddenly you find you have a fire in your belly, strong enough to grab life by the balls once more.

Obviously I can only speak for women, but I'm not sure men suffer from such fun-numbing neuroses. Even with a paunch, balding and more wrinkles than a Shar-Pei puppy, they seem to look in the mirror and see a Greek god gazing adoringly back at them. It's like they have reverse body dysmorphia.

I'm not claiming to be some self-help guru, and believe me, I'm often riddled with self-doubt. But one thing I've learnt as I get older is that if you don't believe in yourself, you can't expect anyone else to. In any event, everyone else is far too busy worrying about their own shortcomings and daily dramas to take much notice of yours.

No one knows what the hell we're doing here, everyone's just winging it and trying to get through this thing we call "life" as best they can. None of us are getting out of this alive, so we may as well help each other along, try to realise our dreams and have as much fun as we can along the way.

They say "Life is a journey, not a destination."

Amen to that.

This article first appeared on my blog Life: A Bird's Eye View. To read the full version click here.

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