When I turned 30 - I went through all the stages: denial, as I sank the contents of our drinks cabinet refusing to acknowledge that now my hangovers take a sodding two days to clear. Anger, as I looked back at photos of my misspent 20s wondering why I didn't love myself more or appreciate what a much better body I had.
I can't tell you if this will change me fundamentally for ever and ever as a person or whether it will just open my eyes a bit more to peoples' humanity and reduce my own insecure need to 'not put myself out there' for fear of rejection, but I have noticed that I've made a lot more friends in the past couple of weeks.
The fact is not much good happens in this world without first taking a risk, then once the first tentative steps into the unknown are taken you are going to have to work doggedly hard and smart to make the risk pay off. Even after all of this, things may not work out how you expected. It's just that simple!
You never step back and take a look inside yourself and ponder your shortcomings, instead you minimise, alter or deny them. You are not vigorously honest with yourself. You never pause and observe your behaviour without judgement. You are too busy taking everyone else's inventory, yet not willing to take your own.
Confidence isn't the easiest adjective to explain. But if I were to attempt to simplify it, I would say that confidence is a state of mind. Being confident is about possessing the ability to believe in yourself and what you are capable of. It's also about being able to trust in other people and an uncertain future.
True love will find a way no matter what, and whatever is meant to be will be. I believe in my own heart that they are destined to be together, and the universe always sends you the exact experience you are having right now to enable you to gravitate towards the person who has your heart. No matter what obstacles need to be overcome.