One of the DJs who prank called the hospital where Kate Middleton was being treated for morning sickness - shortly before one of the nurses who took the call committed suicide - has said the clip should never have aired.
Mel Greig and Michael Christian rang the King Edward VII Hospital in London, doing an impersonation of the Queen, asking to be put through to the ward where her grandson's wife The Duchess of Cambridge was being treated in December 2012, while pregnant with Prince George.
The hoax call was linked to the death of nurse Jacintha Saldanha who put the call through to the ward and was found dead three days later.
During a tearful interview with Channel 7's Sunday Night programme, Greig said she had felt as if she had been "living a stranger's life" and unable to laugh since it happened.
She also said had been feeling suicidal, adding: "I thought I was going to jump off the balcony."
"I felt like the worst person alive. That feeling hasn't really gone away," she said.
"You're meeting a Mel that has no confidence, a Mel that's so lost with her life, a Mel that feels so much blame and so much guilt nine months down the track. This Mel's depressed."
She also revealed her family had received death threats since the incident.
"They'd ring my mum and say 'Eye for an eye, you need to die because she died'. So many horrible calls. Dad was rushed to hospital from the stress and I thought, 'Great, now I've killed my dad too'," Greig said.
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She added she asked the station, 2Day FM, to disguise the voices in the call before it was aired but said this was refused.
She said: "I absolutely expressed concern.
"As an announcer we are trained to always get permission if we're going to broadcast something, and it just didn't seem right that we'd broadcast that without permission and without doing what we'd normally do as announcers, so I was absolutely concerned."
Greig has since quit the station and even launched legal action against them but Christian returned to the airwaves and has continued working there, even controversially winning an award for 'Next Top Jock' after the prank.
During the interview, she also said she was desperate to apologise to Saldanha's family.
She added: "By saying sorry, it acknowledges I know I've done something wrong and am deeply sorry for it - but for them as well if it gives them closure."