I am a Mental health and Parent blogger, writing about my personal experiences after being diagnosed with PTSD and PND. I am a mum to a beautiful little girl and wife to an amazing husband. I hope by sharing my experiences, it helps at least one person to feel less alone in their journey as it can be very lonely. I now work with the Pandas Foundation helping to raise awareness of Perinatal mental health. All views are my own.
I thought I was going to be in a delivery room with my midwife and husband having them cheer me on whilst I delivered my daughter
Today is International Father's Mental Health Day
19/06/2018 10:34 BST
This is a sore subject even three years on for my husband and I. I tend to get my back up when someone asks me when I’m
16/01/2018 11:54 GMT
You may have seen the BBC article recently stating “more than a third of mothers have experienced mental health issues and
30/11/2017 16:23 GMT
I've realised how important self-care is since having a child and dealing with a mental illness. I was so exhausted from the trauma. Dealing with the aftermath and being diagnosed with PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder) and PND , I generally felt like a completely different person.
16/11/2017 13:05 GMT
Guilt is such an awful feeling. We all feel guilty at some point in our lives. I feel it everyday when I look at my daughter playing. I ask myself: Why wasn't I able to be there for her in the beginning? Why did I have to have a traumatic birth? Why do I have a mental illness?
22/10/2017 23:47 BST
A big worry of mine is how my mental illness is going to impact on my daughter and will my bad days affect her.
19/10/2017 13:50 BST
When things get too much I struggle to rationalise things and my emotions get the better of me. I cry or walk off. I may say things I don't mean because I can't process things quickly enough. I don't get my opinions across as I'd like.
02/10/2017 16:49 BST
Your baby's first birthday is supposed to be a special moment. The excitement of splashing out on presents and decorations. Having cake and a big number one balloon. Having family and friends round with music and party food.
29/09/2017 11:31 BST
I did the house work and made sure everything was ready for her when she woke up. I couldn't sit down. I looked for things to do to keep me busy. I became obsessed with cleaning. Anything to keep my mind busy.
15/09/2017 11:19 BST
The days of fitting into my size eight skinny jeans have gone. I am lucky if I could get them past my thighs now. I am trying to rock the curvy figure. I think I'm finally happy with my body as I have come to realise I won't get my pre baby body back - so sod it!
07/09/2017 15:26 BST
Every woman's pregnancy and birth is different. Mine started out with difficulty because we had IVF. Once we were successful we had our six week scan and we were transferred to the NHS for the remainder of our care. It went downhill from there.
31/08/2017 11:50 BST
1.My daughter loves having a tantrum when we are shopping. I use to be mortified. Bright red face, everyone looking as I slowly scoop my child off the floor while trying to exit the building in a form of stealth mode seen only in James Bond. Now I just let her get on with it and almost feel like throwing myself down there right alongside her.
29/08/2017 15:01 BST
The days of going out for a nice meal with the hubby are gone. These days I get excited when my husband comes home so I can have a cuppa on my own, use the bathroom by myself or even have a bath without a rubber duck or princess Elsa launched at me.
25/08/2017 14:13 BST
I became over protective and when I did take her out I gripped the buggy so tight my knuckles went white. I constantly looked around. I hated when people came over to the buggy. I just wanted to stay in my house and shut the world out.
20/08/2017 21:12 BST
Six days passed with no tests. Doctors glimpsed, gasped and then walked away, never the same one twice. I was terrified, ashamed and embarrassed. I felt like I wasn't meant to be a mother. I still hadn't held or bonded with my baby girl.
15/08/2017 17:04 BST
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