Professional sport can be agonising and I expect that if you ask any neutral that watched yesterday's match at the Stade Felix Mayol they will say that the visitors deserved a draw, at the very least.
Confidence is one of the most difficult things to find in professional sport. When you have it, it propels you to greatness that you didn't think was possible however when you lose it, it is the most difficult thing to find in the world - the smallest needle in the largest of haystacks.
Six weeks ago, I played my last professional game of rugby. The chapter of my life that started with my debut at Newcastle at the age of 19, ended at 36 in Oxford with the final shrill of a referee's whistle. Just like that, Tom May, London Welsh captain became Tom May former rugby player. So what now?
Exactly eight months and 18 days after the Wayne Barnes blew the whistle to open the Aviva Premiership Season at Franklin's Gardens we found out which two Aviva Premiership sides would go head to head for the 2015 trophy; Saracens and Bath.
The RFU policy on selection for the England team is frustrating; if you want to represent your country you must play your club rugby in England. The idea is simple; to make sure the best English players are playing week in week out for our clubs...
Crucial Year for England Rugby - Neil Back's Insight on New Premiership Season and Elite Squad Selection
The first round of domestic rugby's top flight Aviva Premiership is complete, and each fixture was packed with the sort of excitement and intensity only rugby can bring. I spoke to former Lions and England international Neil Back MBE on Saturday morning before the London Double Header.
For England's domestic rugby fans today is that day, rugby's Christmas Day and in a few short hours the Northampton Saints and Gloucester Rugby will kick off the 2014/15 Aviva Premiership Season.
England under Stuart Lancaster seem to be building something special (though we've been saying that for over two years now) but they haven't got a Six Nations title or currently a consistent record against the Sanzar nations. Yet they have provided moments and performances that suggest they could challenge in the long run or if the stars align next year.
There are rarely any dull moments; huge collisions, eye-watering feat, fierce rivalries and deft skills means that if you switch off for a second during a match you'll miss something... Rugby is a physically dangerous sport, on a weekly and even daily basis players put their bodies and indeed lives on the line.
The Premier League final could be moved from its logical place at the end of the domestic season to a new slot in late January or early February to make room for a new cross-border competition, under controversial plans from England's top clubs.