The soul is not going to be expressed fully and naturally. It will have to please the world in order to be loved. We all create an ego that is this personality that wants to match the world and we start adopting a lot of judgement from our surroundings.
I have never even contemplated paintball but deep down I know why. And it isn't necessarily because of the nerds or the wannabe Rambos. It is something much more close to home and inescapable; I knew it would bring out the childishness that still resides in me.
Although I'm not sure I buy into it totally, I do believe that we are all children at the core; all of us, from the youngest to the oldest. This is evident at the best of times and particularly at the worst of times, when we suffer loss. The more time I spend at the hospital visiting my mother-in-law, the more I know this to be true.