living in the moment

Why do we have such a strong habit of doing this? Why would we want to be absent so much, diminishing our true potential and powerfulness, avoiding the sheer intensity and aliveness of being fully present? Is this really so scary? Why would we want to have a sort of 'half life' for big chunks of our time?
I have been feeling overwhelmed lately. It is sure that planning a wedding can be very stressful. Especially when you have the tendency to be a bit of a control freak like myself? So when everything seems to fall on top of you and you feel weighed down. What do you do? How do you cope?
This plan, based on the life experience of someone who I have studied assiduously for ten years offers you some answers, what you choose to do with them is your responsibility.
I rarely get moved or struck by things that I read. I don't know if it's as a result of ripping books to shreds and examining their internal organs as part of my time in university, or if I'm just a cold-hearted bitch, but this sentence, and the passage which followed, really stopped me in my tracks.
Putting myself first does not come naturally. I am a natural giver - like so many teachers and therapeutic practitioners I know. However, I am learning the art of self-love, self-care and prioritising myself.
It would be misinformed to imply that the suffering of Robin Williams and so many other ill-fated stars has been brought on solely by their fame, their 'success', of course. It's both impossible and futile to say whether the pressures of fame cause those conditions or whether those conditions motivate the vulnerable to pursue that fame. But what I think is important is to draw what positivity we can from such a tragedy.