The experience has given me a fleeting glimpse into what life would be like with depression. Even in those few weeks, my life was completely under the control of my lack of emotion and drive. Horrible thoughts would creep into my head, and the idea of social interaction was exhausting. It took over my body and mind as much as my physical illness.
The reality is, whatever we are scared of and whatever the solution might be, we shouldn't force ourselves to do it and carry on regardless. Sometimes we need to look for alternatives or a way to discuss our fears and find somebody that is willing to help you resolve them.