Love LB with everything you've got. Love her like you did six years ago, back when you were the boldest version of yourself. Love like you have nothing to lose except solitude, fear and cynicism. The audacity you had then is the audacity you need now.
It is natural for us, as humans, to judge people, and, of course, ourselves, since it just happens without us even thinking about it. We take one look and in two seconds summarise our opinion of a whole person.