I am besotted, despite the fact that as a result of her cries, I haven't slept in days (yet I am somehow more energised than ever, pumped full of euphoria – and the occasional caffeinated drink – which is leading me to wonder how much more I could have achieved in life if I had spent the last 10 years only sleeping two to four hours a night).
After the initial reign of terror on the first night we brought Diana home (a completely traumatising experience for both my partner and myself: he was scarred from changing over 15 nappies filled with meconium – the revolting, tar-like first poos of the baby, while I was devastated that I couldn't feed my child, who spent the night howling in despair and pounding my chest with the world's smallest fists as she dug her nails into her cheeks in frustration and stuffed her chubby little arm into her mouth instead of my nipple because it was apparently doing a better job than I could), we got the hang of things. Sort of.
Basically, we learned that every time she cries, she wants to eat, and I figured out how to feed her. (Naturally, my partner is thrilled because he realised this means he can sleep, although he's still pretending to be pulling all-nighters when anyone asks).
I'm not only breastfeeding because it's known to be very beneficial for babies, but also because when you're lazy like I am, offering your child a nipple is a lot easier than mixing formula and sterilising and heating bottles at 2, 4 and 6 am (and, yes, I have been up at all of those hours and many minutes in between). Also, I plan to splurge on a pair of ridiculously extravagant heels with all the money I'm saving from not buying formula.
In fact, even though my assets are now on display almost constantly – and in public, no less – the overall effect is more comical than anything else. I am constantly leaking milk through my clothes, one nipple likes to squirt milk at random and while accessories used to mean jewellery or a handbag, they now include soaking-wet breast pads and a nursing pillow, which I drag from room to room.