It's now 3am and she's awake again. It must be her teeth. I read somewhere that the pain can be worse at night. But baby M doesn't want Calpol. It takes me 45 minutes to coax it into her and 15 minutes later she's back in her cot and I'm crawling into bed. Mr MBAW is snoring.
I've seen my eldest become a shadow of his former self, mainly because kids have been kids and said things to him, that he's then become upset about. We've done our best to help him make friends, but it hasn't worked. The school has done what it can to support us. Unfortunately, our combined efforts haven't worked.
Just had a baby? Feeling sleep deprived? Have you fallen asleep with the baby in your arms and woken up three hours later in the same position? Do you drift through the day in a zombie-like state, fantasising about pillows?
As I continue to recover from my recent surgery, I have realised in the last week how important my partner's role is for our son's development. Of course, I have always known that my son needs his daddy but when your partner works offshore and you are the one running the household, often alone raising your child it is easy to forget
As I scroll down the screen images of my son's sweet smile gaze back at me, as do the faces of other people's children. Happy, crying, sitting on the supermarket floor screaming. There they are. Through the blogsphere we share our lives, the pretty and the difficult. Are parent bloggers selfish?
My three children are all sporty. They run which means cross-country in the Winter and athletics in the Summer. My daughter plays netball, volleyball, hockey and rugby. My sons play rugby and football. They are all competitive in their various sports which spills over into other aspects of life.
The DFE has also yet to answer questions about the ways in which data collected by such inappropriate tests are to be stored; what uses will be made of them and how long they will be retained. For example, might schools use such data to set and stream children in the early primary school period?
We didn't choose to home educate the children just so that they could see me checking my phone for most of the day. Part of being a conscious parent involves frequent reflection on how things are going, and making changes when needed. For me, watching that video footage drew a line that I want to avoid crossing in future.
All of these snap judgements, these microaggressions, can add to the fear that can often surround motherhood. I lost hours of my life second guessing what people were thinking of me, what I was doing, whether I was doing a good job. Really, all that mattered was whether I was putting Fin first, doing the best job I could do, and being me.
This year, Friday 17th February is Random Acts of Kindness Day. But I would like to make the case that for some members of our society - such as my disabled son - kindness from strangers is an every day part of life. It always has been, in all of his 21 years.
It was only as time moved on -- when we realised that Brody had various disabilities and I had the opportunity to meet more doctors, therapists and mums walking similar paths-- that I discovered sensory issues was a thing. And that it was known to many as sensory processing disorder (SPD).
A tug at my trouser leg brought me back into the room. I looked down to find an eighteen month old offering me a small fistful of peanut butter and, for the first time since I gave up nutty spreads as a five year old, I accepted it.
As a parent, being able to communicate with your small person is amazing. It eliminates most of the guesswork that was faced during their first year or so. Instead of just wailing when they want something they can generally express what it is that they actually want - the thing that will stop the wailing! It's a game changer.
He's kind, caring and one of the most compassionate people I know. But since he started school he's slowly lost his confidence and his belief in himself. He's too caught up with what other people think of him because he's been bullied over and over.
That's the key thing about painting. It's learning. The two are inextricably linked, for children especially. Art-based activities help young minds to make sense of the world around them. They explore ideas by making shapes with tools.
Mother nature instinctively teaches us to protect our children no matter what the cost, so when it comes to letting our children grow up, how easy is it to stand back and remove the safety net that we have carefully placed around them?
It was lovely to see everyone, but I came away from it feeling sort of sad. We only had a couple of hours together. There were four couples and six kids between us. The amount of one on one chat time I got with my friends wasn't long enough.
A fascinating statistic was published this month that surprisingly seems to have almost sunk without trace given its significance. Britain has seen major growth in the number of surrogate babies born in recent years