It's hard for me to write this and come up with words and sentences because it feels like no one is at the wheel of the ship - so who's writing this? I'm pushing myself to keep going so I can remember what it looks like when it's written down and for everyone else who suffers with this to say this is not your imagination, you are not being self indulgent (I'm fighting my mind on that one). It's exactly what it says on the bottle, it's poison, terrifying and a complete mummification in nothingness.
But what is it that makes debut fiction so irresistible? For some it's the excitement of discovering new voices. For others it's the possibility of following a writer though a long career from the very beginning.
Sony's decision to halt the release of The Interview will cost tens of millions of dollars. This is in addition to the estimated $100M costs incurred as a result of the hack. Nobody has died in this skirmish, but the economic costs of this one attack are huge.
Volunteers are the backbone of sport in the UK, without them sport just wouldn't be possible.... Volunteering helps boost communities, people who volunteer in sport feel closer to their communities, they feel they can trust their communities and that they have an impact on what that community is like. I've seen it first hand, people from different backgrounds, ages and areas coming together for a cause they feel strongly about.
We spend every Christmas Eve indoors watching The Muppet Christmas Carol. There is no better way to kick off Christmas proceedings than this film, and here's why...
I've been in the fog for about a week. In a way it feels like I've been reunited with an evil, lost relative. Someone from my past I can vaguely recognize - and then it comes to me, oh yes, it's depression. I remember now... This time it's different than any of my past episodes, At this point when I had depression in the past I'd be panicking that my old self is gone - my old personality gone and this new deader one to replace it. But even in this chaos I sort of know this is temporary, I just happen to have this disease and this loss of identity is part of it; my mind is just out of the office for a minute.
These are men of the north country, a happy band of brothers who have staked their future on one roll of the dice. Or so it would seem were it not for the man who has stepped in to back the musical endeavours of Manchester-based band, Alias Kid.
The latest figures reveal that office space is being converted to residential in Central London at a terrifying and unsustainable rate. Of particular concern to the creative community of London's Soho, is that a quarter of that lose is on our doorstep.
Ella on the Run caught the music industry's attention earlier this year when she featured on Glastonbury's Emerging Artist list. I first got to know Ella on the Run when she released her single Golden Boys.
Following the various bans imposed on Russian citizens living in Europe, and the drop in oil prices, there was apprehension surrounding Russian Art Week in London last month. Dealers and auction houses were wondering how the political and economical situation would impact the Russian art market. In essence, the market has proven to remain strong.
Strictly Come Dancing can bring a genuine journey to the viewers as the likes of Mark Wright and Simon Webbe have gone from fitting shoes to two left feet to being in the final as they show such a level of improvement, they give hope to all dad dancers across the nation.
Moroni is widely regarded as one of the finest painters of the 16th century, and a critical innovator in portraiture, in particular. Yet his name is not widely known by the general public so this new exhibition at the Royal Academy, the first ever large-scale display of his work outside Italy, is an important contribution in correcting this.
The fact of rape is a terrible one: it's the inhumanity of deriving sexual pleasure in the face of another person's pain. Where sex might please in the pleasing of others, rape is its opposite. It becomes a violence like none other, a nightmare extreme of Schadenfreude.
There are tens of thousands of actors in the UK and hundreds of thousands, if not millions, worldwide. The competition is huge and casting directors see an insane amount of actors. What to do? Well, keep in touch of course.
What have I read, what have I learned, what have I proved to myself, that's what I want to know. Not about the random highs, but the necessary and sustained lows. Not about the chaos, but about the easy order of silence. Bloody 'ell I sound like a Vulcan. But no, seriously, my point is, I think 2014 has made me a better artist.
Greener than many of its neighbours, and home to both the highest mountain range in Africa and the source of the mighty Nile, Winston Churchill famously described Uganda as the 'Pearl of Africa'. Unlike much of the country, however, due to its harsh climate and low annual rainfall, the Karamoja region is predominantly a semi-arid plain - causing many problems for the communities who live there.
This festive season, Trafalgar Studios is offering up an alternative look at the work of Charles Dickens, in the form of 'Dickens with a Difference.' The double-bill incorporates the London premieres of Miss Havisham's Expectations and Sikes & Nancy.
A good editor is essential to the success of any book. So this week I interviewed Sarah Vincent, author and editor of ten years with Cornerstones, one of the UK's leading Literary Consultancies.