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My Battle With Body Image

Posted: 16/04/2012 00:00

My body and weight has always been a concern for me. I know people might look at me and think that I have the great body and that when I mention my issues, they assume I am just seeking attention. But to me it's real.

I have always had issues with my body and as I get older it has become more of a concern. When I was Miss Wales, I was a size eight. While I don't weigh myself, I know that my weight has increased. At its worst, I was well over a size 12. That's a 50% increase; the same as someone going from a size 12 to size 18. Psychologically that amount of increase would have an impact on any woman.

I know many women have issues with their bodies, I certainly do. I don't like my hips and I have cellulite. And, there are times I despise my body and, although I know I'm not fat, I do think that I need to reduce my weight to feel happy - and that's the thing isn't it; feeling comfortable about yourself.

Now I don't think we should all be a size zero because I genuinely believe that people find curves more attractive than being stick thin. Also as you get older being too thin can be less attractive.

My problem is that I absolutely love my food so I find it difficult to control my weight. To make up for it I exercise a lot, but exercise alone is not enough. And whilst I adore all things sweet, I know I must change my attitude to eating, if I am to get to grips with my weight and shape.

I have tried many diets but I never stick them. I always think, what's the point? Because most diets are restrictive - stopping eating certain types of foods but once you've lost the weight and you start eating those foods again the weight soon creeps back up.

I've tried to just cut down on eating fatty foods - like crisps and chocolate - but it's difficult as I love eating them, especially cream eggs.

Additionally, I do not have a conventional 9 to 5 work life; I'm always on the go, so it is difficult to stick to a diet. I often finish work late, as does my boyfriend so we often end up either eating out or having takeaways. If I have had a particularly bad day, believe it or not, I'll order a dessert first because for me that's the comfort I need to get over a stressful day.

I think I lot of busy women will understand this - whether they are mothers with kids or women with hectic, high pressure jobs. Realistically, they just do not have the time to put into practice the healthy lifestyle they are told to or even want to live.

As I get older, I need to have a more balanced and healthier relationship with food. You'd think I'd know better with my degree in health studies but for me, and many others, food is a comforter and fuel rather than an enjoyable experience. The last couple of years have been very stressful which has had an impact on my eating habits and it's difficult to get out of that routine.

However, I'm in a stable and happy relationship, I'm more positive about taking control but I know it's not going to be easy to cut back on the sweet things I crave. But like an alcoholic, the first thing to do is recognise you have a problem. Now that I have, I am taking control.

Over the last few months I've been looking into the various weight loss aids and diets, which has been very interesting. I've tried many weird and wonderful remedies, like hypnotherapy and another - I won't mention - even gave me the shakes. I've now finally settled on one that I like and that works for me.

I've been on the plan for the last few months and the great thing is that it allows me to continue to eat the foods that I enjoy but just eat a little less of them, without even thinking about it. Already I've dropped a dress size.

I think finally, I am getting a more positive attitude to food and more importantly I am finally getting used to my body and my curves.

 

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My body and weight has always been a concern for me. I know people might look at me and think that I have the great body and that when I mention my issues, they assume I am just seeking attention. But...
My body and weight has always been a concern for me. I know people might look at me and think that I have the great body and that when I mention my issues, they assume I am just seeking attention. But...
 
 
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12:39 PM on 04/22/2012
Repeating what you have just said:

"Now I don't think we should all be a size zero because I genuinely believe that people find curves more attractive than being stick thin. Also as you get older being too thin can be less attractive."

It's all very well for 21st century women, plighted with the burdens of indulgence, to preach the acceptability of excess weight. But to flippantly condemn thin people as though you were somehow championing a human rights issue, or doing the world some saintly favor, it makes me sick.

My harp with the western world. We have the luxury of choosing to be thick or thin; everything else comes down to vanity and bored aspiration. Your stick thin, unattractive readership born into less affluent social conditions wouldn't think much of your revolutionary viewpoints.
06:05 AM on 04/22/2012
***aspiring businesswoman***


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Ben Wilson
08:36 PM on 04/20/2012
I have an injunction out on my body image.
01:50 PM on 04/20/2012
What Imogen has shared shows the struggle a lot of people have with food and the cycle of eating = guilting = repenting = repeating. Food has power because it is a necessary to our survival and it's a complex relationship as we have biochemical reactions in our body to eating food. Sweet, fatty, high calorie food not only tastes good but provides us with a dopamine high.

When you throw the diet mentality and the slim ideal weight pressures in this mixture things get even more complicated. The only way to end the drama is to make peace with food and your body so food loses it's seductive 'forbidden' nature and you can feel good about your body - honor your health - your hunger (and preferences to eat cream eggs) because you are giving your body what it wants, when it truly wants it (biological hunger).

This approach is called Intuitive Eating - also noted as Instinctive Eating or Mindful Eating.
01:26 PM on 04/19/2012
wah wah
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bluespagan
Love is the Law, Love under Will
12:23 PM on 04/19/2012
I find it sad that here in the US she would be considered "plus size".

I honestly think, simply from looking at British and European media, that the European mindset to weight and size is much better than America's mindset. Here, women are not allowed to even think about showing the least amount of belly fat. Her entire body must be slim, tones and curveless. The women who are touted as the most desirable are usually the ones who have been lipo'd, nipped, tucked and "expanded" (aka implants) in all the right places. I just looked up pictures of Ms. Thomas and I have to say, it is nice to see a woman who looks soft instead of like she could impale you with her hip bone.
I am a 28 year old mother of an 11 month old daughter. I currently weight about 126 to 127 lbs. I wear a size 6 in jeans (European size equivalent is an 8 I believe) which are loose around my waist but fit on my hips. I am trying desperately to lose 10 lbs because I feel fat. Mainly due to the fact that my stomach is no longer flat and I am still holding onto the fat around the middle from my pregnancy.
I think more women should speak out about how they feel about their bodies and then work to change how the media perpetuates these feelings.
02:08 PM on 04/17/2012
'aspiring businesswoman'
Having sex with footballers then selling your story is not a good business idea.
10:20 PM on 04/16/2012
This reads like a blog about a woman with an eating disorder. Bad eating habits combined with excessive exercise and diet aids. All wrapped up in a big 'I hate my body' shell. This woman doesn't need our scorn, she needs some help.
06:25 PM on 04/16/2012
What an honest expression of the battle many women and men face to achieve the societal ideal body size.

Imogene describes what is known as Disordered Eating by psychologists. It is not a full blown eating disorder, but, it is damaging to the body, mind and spirit.

She seems to have found yet one more way to control her behavior. But her issues with her body are not really about her body or food. It is so much easier to be obsessed with controlling her weight than to deal with life without this obsession. What if her body or food were not the problem? What then?

If she learned to practice Health At Every Size, which is brilliantly written about in Linda Bacon PhDs book of the same title and dealt with her emotional issues leading to her disordered eating and weight thoughts, she would be in recovery from this illness. Another book, It's Not About Foid by Laurelee Roark and Carol Emery Normandy, shines light and offers alternatives to the familiar behaviors and thinking that have caused suffering to countless women and increasingly men for a very long time.
06:06 PM on 04/16/2012
A quick and certain way for Imogen to lose weight would be the removal of her breast implants, they probably weigh a couple of pound on their own.
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04:46 PM on 04/16/2012
When are girls/women going to learn that they have so much more to offer than their size/shape/ self esteem to the world?Come on girls, wake up and smell the coffee.
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01:10 PM on 04/17/2012
It would be nice to hear this from a man, for a change...
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vividrick
I came, I saw...I had a cup of tea!
12:44 PM on 04/16/2012
No tarty attention seekers please...NEXT!!!
11:07 AM on 04/16/2012
I take a shine to Imogen. She seems like a nice person. Keep it coming.
04:30 PM on 04/16/2012
I agree. More please.
10:23 AM on 04/16/2012
Imogen Thomas seems to be labouring under the misapprehension that women's dress sizes follow a linear scale starting from zero. Someone going from a size 8 to a size 12 is not a 50% increase in size.

Is a size 2 foot twice the size of a size 1 foot? Is 2 degrees C 'twice as hot' as 1 degree C?