I have had that said to me on many occasions when I crack and tell people that my life is a total lie and I am, in fact, miserably married to an emotional abuser.
What people don't understand is that no one gets into a relationship with, or even marries a full on abuser. If my husband had acted like he does now when I first met him, I would have run a mile.
Emotional abuse, or any abuse, starts small. People with the tendency to become abusive (that's a nice way of saying abusers) know that they have problems with control or with anger, and at the start of a relationship, they are good at hiding and trying to act 'normal'.
There are little red flags that pop up from the beginning of the relationship, but you tend to put them down to 'normal' behaviors at first. It's only later on when things start to escalate that you think back and realise that you should have taken more notice of those red flags at the beginning.
The sudden bursts of anger.
The bouts of silent treatment.
The dismissing of your feelings.
The annoyance instead of compassion when you are upset.
These are all things that are easy to shrug off at the beginning. You tell yourself that maybe they are having a bad day and you begin the never ending cycle of making excuses for them.
Slowly, they begin to get worse as their mask slips. It's usually during pregnancy when the abuse reaches it's peak, because now, they have you trapped.
Sadly, that's usually never the case. By that point, they will have done a complete number on you. You will probably be at the point where you think that it's you who has a problem and not them.
They will have gaslighted you (manipulated you by psychological means into doubting your own sanity) so successfully that you are probably saying sorry to them all the time.
Months and years of emotional abuse wears you down to the point where you don't know who you are anymore.
They are masters of turning situations round to make themselves look like the victim. If they are shouting at you and you dare to shout back, they will immediately go calm and quiet while you shout and cry and then they will say, "look at you! Shouting and crying, I told you, you are mental!" They will then deny that they were ever angry. They might even call you abusive.
So you decide to become cold and detached, because by that point, you don't love them. You don't even like them, but most of the time you are trapped by circumstances (money, housing, children) that mean you can't leave.
So you try and live your own life and not think about them. This is when they realise that something is up and that they are losing their hold on you; this is usually when the love bombing starts. They tell you how much they love you all the time, they might even start doing things around the house or looking after the children for the first time in their lives.
The first time they do that, you believe them. You think that they have realised how horrible they have been and that they have changed for the better. You kid yourself that they feel bad for the way they have treated you and that this is how life will be from now on. And then one day, they switch back. The baby cries for too long, or you annoy them in some miniscule way and the switch is flipped again and the act is over and the real, angry, manipulative them is back.
So you go back to walking on eggshells all the time, behaving exactly as they want so they don't lose their temper with you.
They will have work colleagues, friends and family who think they are wonderful and who will tell you how lucky you are to have them, which makes you second guess yourself even more. You don't leave because you know you will be made out to be the mad one (you are on anti-depressants, after all), the bad parent, the bad wife, the lazy stay at home mum who has the unbelievable cheek to ask for help after a day sat on her arse when her husband works so hard to pay the bills.
You think no one will believe you, or help you and life is very lonely.
When you finally snap and have enough and tell them that their behavior isn't normal and you want to leave, they will twist your words and turn everything around on you. They wouldn't be so angry if you weren't so infuriatingly stupid, they wouldn't be so controlling if only you would just listen to them and realise they are right all the time.
I don't have any answers I'm afraid. But really, it isn't you who has mental or emotional problems, what ever they tell you. It's them who is the ill one.
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