24/11/2011 13:09 GMT | Updated 22/05/2015 10:12 BST

X Factor Judge Kelly Rowland: I Want To Have Kids...Just Like Beyonce

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X Factor judge Kelly Rowland says she can't wait to get married – and when she does she would like five children.

And she revealed how devastated she felt after she was dumped by her fiancé Roy Williams in the same week as she appeared on the cover of a glossy magazine a few years ago.

"I wanted that wedding. I wanted to be married. I wanted to have kids," she said. "At that time I was crazily talking about wanting five."

Now she's determined to make up for her own sadness by being as involved as possible in her friends' happiness – starting with her Destiny's Child pal, Beyonce.

She vowed not to miss the birth of the 30 year-old superstar's baby to husband Jay-Z early next year after she wasn't able to be around for another friend's child being born – something she has regretted ever since.

"I wouldn't miss the birth of Beyoncé's baby," she said. "I can't. I don't want to miss those moments.

"It's life happening to people that I love and I want to be a part of it."