Caitlyn Jenner Reveals She Contemplated Suicide In 'I Am Cait' Episode

Caitlyn Jenner has opened up about how she contemplated suicide over her gender identity torment.


The ‘Keeping Up With The Kardashians’ star revealed once thought about shooting herself while living as Bruce Jenner.

Caitlyn makes the emotional admission in scenes to be broadcast in her new documentary series, ‘I Am Cait’, which will document her transition.

Caitlyn Jenner

She said: "I've been in some dark places, I have been in my house with a gun and said, 'Let's just end it right there, no more pain, no more suffering, that struggle, it's real and I've been there."

The first episode of the eight-part series will also see her mother Esther coming to terms with her son becoming a woman.

According to The Mirror, Esther broke down in tears and she discussed with Caitlyn how difficult she has found it.

"It's going to be so difficult for me to think of you as she, and say Caitlyn when I want to speak with you, or call your attention, 'Hey Caitlyn' instead of, 'Hey Bruce,'” she said.

“You look so much like someone in my family and I was trying to figure it out, it's not easy, it's not easy.

“But your values are always going to be the same, Bruce will still be there, you have the same soul, you have the same soul as you were born with.

“I love Bruce, it will never change. Its going to take some getting used to, I want to do what he wants.

“The problem before with you and I, I'm guessing this, is that you felt uncomfortable with me, we would see each other and it was like you wanted to get away.”

Caitlyn replied: “I was an isolationist, I isolated myself from the world because I didn't fit in, I was kind of stuck in the middle. Caitlyn fits into society better than Bruce.

“I'm very optimistic about the future and I’m dragging you along with me.”

Caitlyn introduced herself to the world earlier this year

‘I Am Cait’ debuts on E! on Sunday 26 July.

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