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04/12/2019 10:08 GMT

Chris Martin Talks 'Very Homophobic' Past And Coming To Terms With Sexuality

The Coldplay frontman opened up about being "terrified" as a teenager that he might be gay.

Coldplay frontman Chris Martin has said he had to reconcile his “very homophobic” past before coming to terms with his own sexuality.

The Grammy-winning singer sat down with Rolling Stone for a wide-ranging, in-depth interview released on Tuesday, which touched on everything from his “brutal” upbringing and his religious beliefs to his insecurities and global fame. 

As a young teen, Chris was sent to an all-boys boarding school and recalls confronting “some stuff with religion and sexuality and everything” that informed his identity. 

He also explained that he developed a complex relationship with religion that made him feel both connected to humanity but also increasingly isolated over his fears of being gay.

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Chris Martin

“When I went to boarding school, I walked a bit funny and I bounced a bit and I was also very homophobic because I was like, ‘If I’m gay, I’m completely fucked for eternity’ and I was a kid discovering sexuality,” he claimed. ”Maybe I’m gay, maybe I’m this, maybe I’m that, I can’t be this.” 

Chris revealed he was “terrified” due to the comments from his schoolmates, whom he described as a group of “quite hardcore kids.” 

“For a few years, they would very much say, ‘You’re definitely gay,’ in quite a full-on manner, quite aggressively telling me that and it was weird for me for a few years,” Chris continued. 

At the time, the Yellow singer admitted he didn’t know if he actually was gay, adding that it created “terrible turmoil”.

Later in the interview, Chris recalled that eventually, something within him shifted as he came to reject the intolerance that had been ingrained in him. 

“About 15 and a half, I don’t know what happened, I was like, ‘Yeah, so what?’ and then it all just stopped overnight. It was very interesting,” he said.

He attributes his changing outlook to “just growing up a bit” and recognising that some of his own heroes were out gay men. 

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Chris performing in Brazil back in 2017

“[I had] a bit more exposure to the world, thinking, ‘A lot of my heroes are gay,’ or whatever. Whatever they are, it doesn’t really matter,” he explained. “So what that did was ease a big pressure and then made me question, ‘Hey maybe some of this stuff that I’m learning about God and everything ― I’m not sure if I subscribe to all of this particular religion’.”

He also says he’s since established a different relationship with God that’s “not really any one religion for me”. 

Religion is, however, a major theme in Coldplay’s new album Everyday Life, which Chris described as “very raw and pure.”

“It’s the first time we really said what we think about some things,” he said of the album. “And it’s trying to be empathetic and it’s a bit unfiltered.”

Chris would go on to marry actor and entrepreneur Gwyneth Paltrow, with whom he shares two children ― Apple, 15, and Moses, 13 ― before their “conscious uncoupling” in 2016. He’s since been linked to actor Dakota Johnson but remains fiercely private about his personal life.

For the full interview, head over to Rolling Stone