Dear World,
Like most Sunday evenings, I have already experienced my "Pre-Monday Blues" episode today and this is how it tends to manifest itself:
I get this sudden overwhelming feeling that I have a lot to do in the coming week which means on Sunday evenings, I have a lot to prepare for and as usual, I don't have enough time to do them all. Oh and coupled with the fact that I'm always lethargic and lacking sleep, this leads me straight into a downwards spiral of what I call my 'Umph' phase - It involves about 2hrs of moaning, feeling restless, eating anything that comes my way, continuously getting under and over the duvet and endless changing of my sitting position because I simply can't get comfortable.
Arrghhhh! I wanna scream! I wanna shout - erm that's the same as wanting to scream yes I know! Slowly but surely, this phase comes to an end and then I realise I've only gone and done it again - I have 'punished' myself. I never give myself a break. I always think of what could be, how I could better myself, what my next step should be, how well others in my field are doing and I let these feelings overwhelm me.
Rather, I should concentrate on what has been - i.e. the things I have already achieved and then allow that positive feeling guide me through from my Sunday evening into the very next week.
I constantly need to remind myself to be proud of how far I've come and take one step at a time.
Thinking about yourself, you may say 'Well, I haven't achieved a lot' - to you, it's never enough. To other people, it would be a dream come true, if only.
I treated a 90+ year old patient the other week and she inspired me to make this short video below. Don't be so harsh on yourself. Give yourself a break. I certainly need to.
Happy Sunday.
Love,
Joy.
xo xo