30/11/2012 10:24 GMT | Updated 29/01/2013 05:12 GMT

A lasting relationship

I've been asked several times what has been my longest ever relationship. I'm happy to say it's the one I'm in right now. We are coming up to our four year anniversary so it's getting quite serious and I can safety say I am deeply in love.

Like every relationship, we have had our ups and down. Around our eighteenth month, back in 2009, I was beginning to feel "the itch". I was getting cold feet and was thinking about walking out. Things had been really rough for about five months and after feeling unloved, lost and alone I thought about going back to live with my mum in Cheltenham. But deep down, I knew I had to fight for what we had. After all, it was love at first sight for me. I remember the very first time I laid eyes on my love. I knew it was right for me. We just... Fit.

Since the day I got involved, I have been convinced my love is a Gemini. A split personality, two sides of unpredictable behaviour. One day, I will be feeling on top of the world with unexpected surprises and nights out that hold wonderful memories. But then, I sometimes feel like I don't know I stand, and I'm feeling like it isn't going anywhere. Sometimes I ask myself that inevitable question - do I stay or do I go?

Oh, before I forget, my relationship is with London. The one relationship I was determined to have from a very young age. But at the age of five, I knew London wouldn't take me at that age. When I was a teenager, I had posters of London and New York all over my bedroom walls and knew I would end up with one of them. I would stare for hours at the tall buildings and the fantasize about being within the hustle bustle of the busy streets.

I knew London was going to be more appropriate for me, considering New York was so far away. But London certainly isn't sloppy seconds. I sometimes joke that when I get bored of London, I'll give New York a go. But these days I try not to look at New York photos for too long, I feel like I'm cheating. Yeah, we all have our thoughts, I think that New York and I would look great together; standing even taller next to me would look dam sexy.

And I would rather wear yellow over black any day. But to literally stare at New York photos while I'm in the heart of London is pretty unfair. No, I'm staying with my Gemini London. They say five years with London is when you have gone the distance and London is with you forever. I think I can handle a few more ups and downs till then. And with so many people only using London for a few months, coming , not feeling the chemistry, then leaving, makes me realise I'm probably in there with London for life ;-)