The drugs, the appointments, the mental health problems, the suicidal thoughts that I have to face on the regular in my day to day life as I still push on with my life shows much more resilience and strength than all of the over-40s snowflake internet Twitter troll club have put together and that goes for my fellow sufferers and fighters too.
In a bid to stem the tide of digital radicalisation by terrorist groups such as Islamic State, the European Parliament has approved plans for new legislation which will allow rapid and widespread removal of extremist content from the internet. Digital rights activists are up in arms over the decision, which they fear will lead to private organisations policing and censoring internet users with impunity.
Weaponising allegations of abuse by opponents (or allegations of purges in response) may not be the same as weaponising the abuse itself but it is also unlikely to help. Insults are never an acceptable substitute for political argument, from whichever direction they come. Abuse in politics disfigures us all and it threatens us all.
At a time when I have personally been urging members of the public to report unpleasant and offensive post-Brexit rhetoric to the police - with the racial hatred and xenophobia spreading across the UK, hearing these words normalised by a elected Member of Parliament is truly is a disaster for community cohesion in all parts of Britain.
For many young people, Orlando will be the largest attack on LGBT people that has happened in their lifetime. It certainly is for me. As with many, I may have been alive in 1999 when the gay bar in London the Admiral Duncan was nail-bombed, killing three and injuring 70 - but I didn't watch the news when I was 7, so it doesn't sit in my mindset like Orlando does.