Breast Cancer Patient Shares Her Fears Ahead Of Double Mastectomy

'People can say ‘they’re just boobs’ but they’re MY boobs and I love them, stretch marks and all.'

A breast cancer patient has penned an honest Facebook post, sharing her fears about having a double mastectomy as she prepares for surgery.

Rebecca Kolpondinos, who was diagnosed with breast cancer two years ago at the age of 31, said to her, breasts are linked with “femininity and sexuality”.

“My breasts are a part of me, just like my eyes I see with, my ears I hear with, and my heart that keeps me alive,” she said in the post.

“They have been mine for 33 years and 330 days, and I’m about to lose them and I’m allowed to feel sad about that. People can say ‘they’re just boobs’ but they’re MY boobs and I love them, stretch marks and all.”

Kolpondinos, from South Australia, explained that she was diagnosed with cancer after “accidentally” discovering a lump in the shower.

She’s already had a partial mastectomy and 20 rounds of radiotherapy, but doctors recommended she have a double mastectomy after she underwent genetic testing earlier this year. 

“’Holy shit...I’m doomed’ was pretty much my response when they laid my family tree out in front of me, showing all the occurrences of breast and gynaecological cancer,” she said

“I have been told there is an ‘inherited predisposition to develop breast cancer in my family.’”

Despite knowing that the operation is the best way to reduce the chances of her cancer returning, Kolpondinos said the decision to have the surgery “didn’t come lightly”.

“All I can do is whatever the hell I can to minimise my chance of recurrence and if this operation will achieve that, then that’s the path I must take,” she said.

“I have two precious children that need me here, and my husband, my soul mate, who is going to have to put up with me for a while longer, scars and all.

“All that being said, I am anxious as hell and nothing short of completely and utterly fucking shit scared.”

More than 800 people have reacted to her post, with hundreds leaving comments wishing her well for her operation, which is due to take place on Wednesday (12 October).

Speaking to Daily Mail Australia, Kolpondinos said the reaction she’s received to the post has been “incredible”.

 “It’s the reason why I wrote about it. Not only have I had women message me saying thank you, but I’ve also had so many men approach me for speaking publicly on the subject,” she said.

“It’s something no one really speaks about, so it’s important to raise awareness.”

She added that she’s drawn support from a closed Facebook group called Reclaim your Curves and recommend others who’ve been diagnosed with breast cancer reach out for support.

She said: “You can’t underestimate how great it is to talk to people who have gone through a similar thing.”

10 Famous Women Get Real About Breast Cancer
Dame Maggie Smith(01 of10)
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Having cancer can knock your confidence and even film stars like Dame Maggie Smith aren't immune.

"It leaves you so flattened," the actress said following her cancer treatment.

"I’m not sure I could go back to theatre work, although film work is more tiring. I’m frightened to work in theatre now. I feel very uncertain. I haven’t done it for a while."
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Kylie Minogue(02 of10)
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Kylie Minogue was diagnosed with breast cancer in 2005, but she refuses to let the disease define her.

"Having had cancer, one important thing to know is you're still the same person at the end. You're stripped down to near zero," she told Good Housekeeping back in 2014.

"But most people come out the other end feeling more like themselves than ever before."
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Jennifer Saunders(03 of10)
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After her cancer diagnosis in 2009, Jennifer Saunders penned a humorous piece on the realities of treatment.

"The first time you have chemo is a bit scary, because you have no idea how you’re going to feel," she said.

"But let me tell you this: it’s basically like the most enormous hangover you’ve ever had in your whole life; it’s like a night on mixed spirits, wine and grappa. It’s a real cracker. It’s a humdinger."
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Shannen Doherty(04 of10)
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Shannen Doherty said "the unknown" is the worst part of living with breast cancer.

"The unknown is always the scariest part," she told ET Online.

"Is the chemo going to work? Is the radiation going to work? You know, am I going to have to go through this again, or am I going to get secondary cancer? Everything else is manageable. Pain is manageable, you know living without a breast is manageable, it's the worry of your future and how your future is going to affect the people that you love."
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Olivia Newton-John(05 of10)
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When Olivia Newton-John was diagnosed with breast cancer in 1992, she learned that sometimes it's important to put yourself first.

"I learned very quickly how important it was for me to think positively," she said on her website.

"When the second friend I called with the news burst into tears, I thought - this is too stressful. I had to find someone else to handle the day to day discussions of my health so I could concentrate on healing."
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Wanda Sykes(06 of10)
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In 2011, Wanda Sykes said her twins, who were just two years old at the time, were one of the reasons she opted to have a double mastectomy.

"We never hid anything from the kids. They were a huge part of my decision because I wanted to be around for them," she told People magazine.

"I feel whole again, I really do. I've told them, 'Mommy's boo-boo is much better now.'"
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Sharon Osbourne(07 of10)
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Sharon Osbourne decided to have a double mastectomy in 2012 after discovering she has a faulty breast cancer gene, having already had treatment for the disease once.

"For me, it wasn’t a big decision, it was a no-brainer. I didn’t want to live the rest of my life with that shadow hanging over me," she said at the time.

"I didn’t even think of my breasts in a nostalgic way, I just wanted to be able to live my life without that fear all the time."

"It’s not 'pity me', it’s a decision I made that’s got rid of this weight that I was carrying around."
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Janice Dickinson(08 of10)
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In an interview shortly after her diagnosis, Janice Dickinson admitted she became scared for herself, but also for her family, when she was given a prognosis.

'It's still quite shocking. Today I got very scared... I just get very scared and it hit me [sic]. But I am not gonna let that define me, the fear," she said.

"I became fearful for my two children, my loving fiancé Rocky, we have a grandson, aged four, his name is baby Aby. I just thought they are gonna flip out."
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Cynthia Nixon(09 of10)
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Cynthia Nixon had a lumpectomy and radiation therapy when she was diagnosed with breast cancer in 2006.

In 2008, she said being the daughter of a cancer survivor helped her get through the difficult period.

"As the daughter of a breast cancer survivor, knowing my personal risk made me more aware and more empowered when I faced my own diagnosis," she said.

"I want to help Susan G. Komen for the Cure [breast cancer charity] educate the 1.1 million women around the globe who face a diagnosis each year."
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Anastacia Lyn Newkirk(10 of10)
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Anastacia Lyn Newkirk was first diagnosed with breast cancer in 2003 then again in 2013, and decided to have a double mastectomy to stop the cancer from spreading.

She's now raising money for Cancer Research UK by appearing on 'Strictly Come Dancing'.

"After beating breast cancer twice, I'm really passionate about trying to do something to help change the odds for others who are affected by this terrible disease," she says on her fundraising page.

"It's so important for everyone to know what's normal for them and see their doctor with any changes, as spotting cancer at an early stage can make a huge difference."
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