People With A 'Secret IIlness' Are Sharing Their Innermost Thoughts Online

'I am scared of my husband touching me because it doesn’t feel right.'

"I am scared of my husband touching me because it doesn’t feel right," writes Gwen, from Kansas USA, on a website called 'The Secret Illness.'

She joins several others seeking to change the perception of obsessive compulsive disorder (OCD) within society.

"I have struggled with OCD since I was 10," she continues.

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The Secret Illness

"Now 32, I know that the only thing this disorder has ever done is lie, distort the truth, and set off false alarms in my head."

Gwen is one among several sufferers bold enough to post their experiences on 'The Wall' - a "creative arts project that explores the realities of living with obsessive compulsive disorder."

To give users the freedom to share their thoughts freely, the site pixilates head shots and offers people the opportunity to submit experiences anonymously. 

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Example of a wall post on The Secret Illness

The forum's creators, Liz Smith and Becca Laidler, wanted to change the trivial manner in which OCD is treated.

Laidler explained to Science.Mic how the three letters are at times used to describe "an organized drawer or a display in a shop window."

However, she added: "It's not about being organised."

"We want to lift the lid on the true debilitating reality of OCD."

Here are a few examples of posts from 'The Wall'

Around 12 in every 1,000 people in the UK are affected by OCD.

It is defined by NHS as "a mental health condition where a person has obsessive thoughts and compulsive activity."

In September, a similar "wall" in Brighton Station gave commuters the opportunity to air their deepest and darkest thoughts without giving away their identity.

9 Signs Of OCD
Causing Harm (01 of09)
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Thinking that your actions or thoughts will cause harm to yourself or someone else. (credit:Shutterstock)
Keeping Things In Order (02 of09)
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Extreme need for a certain order of things. (credit:Shutterstock)
Fear Of Germs (03 of09)
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Excessively thinking about germs and illness. (credit:Shutterstock)
The Same Thing On Your Mind (04 of09)
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Going over and over the same things in your head. (credit:Shutterstock)
Repetitive Behaviours(05 of09)
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Constantly Rearranging (06 of09)
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Constantly needing to touch or rearrange objects. (credit:Shutterstock)
A Focus On Keeping Clean (07 of09)
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Compulsive hand-washing or housecleaning. (credit:Shutterstock)
Checking Things(08 of09)
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Compulsively checking (up to hundreds of times a day) things like alarms, locked doors, and unplugged fixtures. (credit:Shutterstock)
Keeping Everything (09 of09)
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Inability to throw away items there is no reason to keep. (credit:Shutterstock)