Ruebi Bailey

Mental Health and Lifestyle Blogger

Ruebi is an aspiring Yogi, Hypothyroid Lancashire lass, Mental Health and lifestyle blogger

Ruebi blogs about her battles with Mental Health issues and her pursuit of a healthier, happier life. She writes at www.lancashirehotbot.com/ and tweets at @Ruebi_LHB
Open Your

Open Your Eyes

'm not entirely sure what's worse ... The fact this instruction was given so nonchalantly or the fact that because of that one sentence, I actually felt ashamed of myself for having this illness. Because yes, Depression is an illness.
27/10/2016 14:43 BST
I Didn't Realise I Was

I Didn't Realise I Was Lost

Sleep has been disrupted, exercise classes have been avoided, I would rather stick pins in my eyes than have to be social ... Everyday things as simple as merely making beans on toast have just seemed a lot harder to deal with.
27/09/2016 11:43 BST
Puzzle

Puzzle Pieces

It's quite difficult explaining to someone how an illness feels when outwardly you may look perfectly well ... Especially if it is not something the other person has experienced. Sometimes they look at you and you know that (on some level) they get it, other times you may as well be telling them that the sky is green polka dots and that cats shit rainbows.
01/08/2016 15:22 BST
Zumba

Zumba

I could hardly say no to this Zumba class given that my bestie (and fabulous Pole Dancing partner) S was teaching it ... If I had said no, chances are she would have dragged me there kicking and screaming regardless of whether or not I happened to be wearing kitty pyjamas at the time.
05/05/2016 11:25 BST
Diagnosis

Diagnosis Ruebi

Recently I've become incredibly frustrated by people addressing me or my mood as one of the disorders I have rather than properly introducing me or establishing why my mood is that way.
25/04/2016 12:38 BST
Dawn of the

Dawn of the Depression

I'm not sure how I ended up tumbling back into that darkness, the familiar bite of pain ebbing it's way in with each breath I took, slowly becoming all consuming as the demon whispered "you are mine my dear, you are mine".
18/03/2016 17:29 GMT
The Brain Throws a

The Brain Throws a Tantrum

I was irritable, I was tired (despite sleeping 12 hours the night before), I counted the time before my next painkiller dose ... I tried to convince my brain that we were drinking full fat coffee. My brain isn't that stupid though and told me so by instructing my stomach to refuse all food.
24/02/2016 10:50 GMT
Let's Talk

Let's Talk Hypothyroidism

I will have to have a yearly blood test, for the rest of my life, to ensure the Thyroid hasn't deteriorated further. I will have to take a tablet a day, for the rest of my life, to replace the missing hormone. I will be Hypothyroid, every second of every day, until the day I die.
11/02/2016 11:32 GMT
Aerial

Aerial Silks

Alternative title: I'm dangling upside down, the silks wrapped around my legs bearing the brunt of my weight, my arms relaxed, fingers grazing the mat and my brain - my dearest brain - is shrieking in sheer terror.
01/02/2016 15:34 GMT
Where Is My

Where Is My Mind?

I can't always explain why it happens, why a dark fog just envelopes my whole being and slowly starts to smother me, why my thoughts turn against me, why I can't just "put my face straight".
26/01/2016 11:46 GMT