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08/10/2018 12:07 BST

Amanda Holden Says She Still Speaks To Stillborn Son As She Wonders What He Would Look Like Now

The 'BGT' star suffered a tragic loss in 2011.

Amanda Holden has discussed how she talks to her stillborn son and wonders what he would now look like.

The ‘Britain’s Got Talent’ judge delivered her baby, Theo, stillborn in 2011 after he died seven months into her pregnancy. 

In an interview with The Mirror, Amanda opened up about how she thought he would fit into her family now.

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Amanda Holden's son was stillborn in 2011

“Theo is always here. I dream about him and sometimes I speak to him,” she said. “When the girls are playing footy I imagine Theo out there with them. One of them is in goal, the other two racing around… and I wonder what he would look like now.

“He’d just be going into Year Three, so a bit taller than Hollie. And Chris was a really cute little boy so I think he would look like Daddy.”

She added: “But, in reality, Theo will always be a baby in my mind. Our precious baby boy.”

Amanda and her husband Chris lost Theo a year after suffering a miscarriage. 

In 2012, the star nearly lost her life due to complications during childbirth when she delivered her second daughter, Hollie. 

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Amanda with her eldest daughter Lexi

Amanda, who is also mum to 12-year-old Lexi, previously praised the NHS for supporting her after Theo’s stillbirth, as part of ITV’s ‘The NHS Saved My Life’ 

“He looked so normal and so peaceful and I was still his mummy. So I held him in my arms and said goodbye,” she said. 

“I couldn’t have done it without the incredible team around us. My husband was so strong and so amazing, but they got him through it too and then, the days and months afterwards, the same team of people checked on us every single day.”