People that don't know me, who have just met me, often say to me that I am a well-mannered and polite young man. I really appreciate what they say as it makes me feel good about myself. They are right, however I believe they're are two sides to every person, not just the saying 'two sides to every story'. I don't necessarily mean that I am a bad person, I'm just allowing myself to be honest about the other half of me.
We can't go through life pretending to be 'perfect' right? because your life would just be stupid if you did.
In the life of me... I'm not unique or in any other way, I like to think of myself as just being me. I'm not limited edition although sometimes I may think I am, but I'm not, nobody is! They say 'life is what you make it' and I'm a great believer in that quote. Now... Being me isn't always easy, I have my bad and good days. Whereas more often I seem to be having good days now than what I used to have.
Before finding myself, I struggled a long time. Trying to find myself and be proud of what I do. Before, I had no interests, hobbies, nothing! I was just in a spiral of sadness most of the time.I had no friends, I would laze around in bed, just doing the opposite to what a teenager should be doing. I literally had no life.
I had gone through time after time of being motivated to do something I enjoy. I wasn't being lazy, I was just not interested and had zero social awareness in me. Time after time I was attending group meetings with my support workers as they discussed ideas and interests of what I could perhaps do to make myself more occupied with my life . Inside, I was put on edge of the thought of doing an activity by myself. I would have refused to do it on my own. I had no confidence whatsoever. Everybody around me pushed and pushed me to do something to enjoy life. I was having none of it at all and still refused.
Forwarding two year on to now. I feel better than ever. Everybody told me life will get better, and now look! I have my whole life ahead of me doing something I enjoy. Blogging has given me the confidence and independence to do whatever I can achieve if I set my mind to it.
Doing things on my own which I can actually do myself now without needing that constant support of someone. Talking of independence, I've recently started going to the gym to make myself healthier and fitter. I wouldn't have done this on my own, two years ago. I'm always proud of what I've achieved and I now try my hardest to do something that's out of my comfort zone. It makes me feel happier to know that I've come along way in life.
My blog has become a huge interest of mine, which I wouldn't change in any other way. I've finally been able to make myself happier which I never thought I could possibly do. I now have the confidence to do anything. I'm in a happier time of my life and I'm sure it'll stay that way.
If you're going through a struggle in life that you feel will never fade away then let me tell you... It will. Life will get better and better. Helping yourself in small ways will help change your life. Keep progressing and you'll achieve more and more. Take it from me...
Thanks for reading,
Marcus.