From the darkest depths of my mind to being able to openly talk about it all, my biggest hope is that no one feels that they have to continue feeling this way
This probably seems more like a rant than a reasonable, balanced blog post. I've tried to keep it from becoming a stream of consciousness, but it's hard when you're angry. Three years ago, having people tell me how lucky I am was probably the least useful piece of advice I ever received.
During my pregnancy I saw at least eight different healthcare professionals over dozens of appointments mostly relating to my mental health and the dramatic downward spiral that becoming unexpectedly pregnant had caused it to take.
In the first few months of my pregnancy I became almost convinced that I wasn't actually pregnant with a human baby...
My idea of what my pregnancy would be like in no way matched up with the reality of extreme morning sickness, SPD and an inability to cope with life in general. Being pregnant didn't help me to work through my issues, it magnified them to the extent that most days I struggled to get out of bed.
I found anything to do with planning for Squidge's arrival incredibly difficult and stressful but in hindsight I'm glad that I made the plans that I did. These are are the things that I learned from making my own birth plan and from making preparations at home.
What happens if your pregnancy is characterised by feelings of worthlessness, hopelessness and a lack of interest in the baby? Or suicidal thoughts, sleep problems and an inability to think concisely? Unfortunately, this is the case for growing numbers of women who suffer from antenatal depression.
More needs to be done to spot and support women suffering with antenatal depression, experts have warned today. The Royal