Deleting the day from my calendar and staying in bed is appealing, but it isn't real life. I am finally at a point now that I can face these days with at least some kind of composure. Processing the grief of losing my babies and accepting that we would not have children has been a slow and heart-breaking process.
For 12 years, my husband and I have been trying for children. It's such a simple aspiration, something so natural. To have a family. When the simple becomes a nightmare, it can take over your life and result in feeling like a total failure. To do the simplest thing, to know that my body is letting me down so badly is hard to process.
It's important to know that freezing your eggs does not guarantee a baby, but it offers a good insurance plan. Future success rates depend on factors such as lifestyle and age. It's crucial to remember that before the eggs are ready for use, they must complete several steps prior to pregnancy including surviving thawing, fertilisation, and implantation.