My name is Laine Esperanzate, I am 17 and a creative laid-back free spirit. Having a history of low self-esteem, trust issues and identity issues led me into episodes of depression, constant panic attacks, self-harm and suicide attempts. But looking back, I've realised that mental health isn't a burden.
As I am writing this now, I couldn't be more confident. I never thought I'd arrive at this stage because all my life, I suffered with crippling social anxiety. To overcome it, was something I'd always wished for but never thought I'd be able to. I am surprised that recently, people tell me that I seem bubbly and perky. That was never me in the past.
Part of me is scared of it because, shit, how do I keep it going? What happens with that extra pressure? And what if it all crumbles around me and all I'm left with is a broken heart and a reclamation notice for my shiny new speedboat? And then part of me wants it because, shit, what's the alternative? To not be successful?
Despite being a camera-shy introvert (or may be because of it) I was determined, at the start of this year to overcome my fears... and start LIVE STREAMING. So why live streaming? Surely a regular video where I can cut and chop and edit the heck out of my awkward moments, would have been a smarter choice?
When you see a five-year-old scale an indoor-climbing wall like some kind of mini-Spiderman, you don't immediately think you're in for a workshop on business development. After the adrenaline has worn off (and you're in the pub celebrating your intact bones) a few lessons might just sink in, that could be applied to anyone in business today.
For many years I believed that I wasn't a very confident person. This was mainly based on the idea that I had of what confidence was. From school onwards we are taught that to be confident is to be the child that always puts their hand up in class, the one that volunteers to read the next chapter out loud in English lesson, or takes the lead in group activities.
Valentine's Day is here and you might be frantically thinking about how to show your loved one you care. Or perhaps you're waiting with excitement what they will do for you to surprise you. There's nothing wrong with either of those scenarios - unless you start to let your expectations influence the happiness and love you feel.
When it comes to success, every thought, belief and behaviour that we hold creates our future. The actions we take influence our outcomes and if we really want to be successful in our efforts, we need to get clear on what habits are holding us back so that we can stop them from dominating our headspace or sabotaging our attempts at success.
This may seem perfectly harmless but it got me wondering, in this world obsessed with staying youthful-looking and flawless, should I be breaking out the anti-wrinkle cream? In asking myself this I realised that I have, from here on out, a decision to make not only about the way I age but if I even choose to age at all.
How about we start to see arrogance as a strength? How about we flip arrogance on its head for a second - I think that arrogance is much like beauty: It's entirely in the eye of its beholder. I say this because I know for a fact that my own 35 year old arrogance (self assured confidence) is often taken in one of two ways ...
In our culture, there is a belief that when things are broken they become unloveable. Which of course means that we discard them. So we chuck out old toys, throw away chipped plates and ditch things that are no longer of value. We give up on broken people. And sometimes, like me at 18, we even try to give up on ourselves...