My tenth confession is a complete embracing of all my imperfections: I'm an idealistic yet pessimistic romantic. I'm a health conscious periodic binge eater. I think I'm so good but I'm super self critical. I'm sweet but I'm angry. I am a bundle of contradictions but again, I challenge anyone to say they are anything other.
This is one of the questions I'm most frequently asked as a coach and therapist. Self-confidence can be a difficult concept to pin down, yet we always know when we don't have enough of it. When we lose (or never develop) belief in ourselves, it can seem impossible to improve. But, as ever, it's wise to not believe everything you think!
To anyone suffering with anxiety, I know that there is a road out of it. I'm not off that road yet - and who knows when I will be - but I am on it. And that's what matters. To anyone suffering, do yourself the biggest favour and tell whatever (or whoever) is making you suffer that they aren't going to prevent you from completing a duty - whether it be to yourself or, like mine, to others. It's easier said than done, but it is so incredibly worth it. Trust me, I know.
Do you ever feel too old? When was the point in our lives when we became too old for stuff? It seems like a blurry memory of some point in my mid 20's when I felt like it for the first time. When you've transitioned into being a proper grown up, you're supposed to have it together, earn respect and NOT FAIL OR LOOK STUPID!
Sometimes it's hard to understand why they're attacking you, and it's bad enough when the keyboard warriors come for you in their scores... but what if a fandom comes for you? What if it's a celebrity you respect? What if someone says something that could really affect your brand? What if they try to destroy you, your business, your puppy, and the horse you rode in on?
I am going to eat more fruits and vegetables, still exercise, but it's time to shift my focus. I was put here for a reason and for me it's about serving in a way that feels authentic. I am going to go with the flow more, focus on what's important and for me that feels like a summer of camp fires, belly laughs and beaches.
I honestly cannot believe I am writing this and sending it out to be read by anyone who finds it, the thought kind of terrifies me; but, this is to help anyone that has been in an awful situation. I want my experiences to be an example to anyone facing something difficult, that one day it will be a distant memory and you can actually build from the things that try and put you down.
My name is Laine Esperanzate, I am 17 and a creative laid-back free spirit. Having a history of low self-esteem, trust issues and identity issues led me into episodes of depression, constant panic attacks, self-harm and suicide attempts. But looking back, I've realised that mental health isn't a burden.
As I am writing this now, I couldn't be more confident. I never thought I'd arrive at this stage because all my life, I suffered with crippling social anxiety. To overcome it, was something I'd always wished for but never thought I'd be able to. I am surprised that recently, people tell me that I seem bubbly and perky. That was never me in the past.
Part of me is scared of it because, shit, how do I keep it going? What happens with that extra pressure? And what if it all crumbles around me and all I'm left with is a broken heart and a reclamation notice for my shiny new speedboat? And then part of me wants it because, shit, what's the alternative? To not be successful?