Waking up and being in pain straight away is beyond depressing and demoralising, but I'd always pick this one over being woken up by the pain. Both options are so tough, lonely, and exhausting, though. They also feel indescribable. Words somehow just don't do being-in-constant-severe-pain justice at all.
I'm a man in a fairly patriarchal culture, in a stream of the Christian church that has often overtly pushed the idea of 'strong' masculinity; where male Christians are routinely referred to as 'warriors' and the 'head of the family'; where a mega-church pastor once spoke of not wanting to worship a Jesus that he could beat up.
As someone who has lived with chronic pain and associated conditions since my early adulthood, I have tried scores of aids, medications, complementary products and stimulation devices in order to try and reduce my pain and allow me to live a fuller life. I've had the pleasure of discovering the MediPen recently and I've never tried anything quite like it!