I spent half of the night messaging him and talking to him on the phone. The end result was me going home early. In my mind this was a triumph for me, I'd managed to go out. However for him, it was also a triumph, a much bigger, much more overpowering triumph. Mine dwarfed in comparison. He knew he'd won.
One thing I've learnt from my parents' divorce is that no one is perfect. We all have our flaws, grave mistakes and our positives. One of my favourite quotes is 'We accept the love we think we deserve'. When you have been raised on criticism, abuse and threats, it's only a matter of time before you start to think it's true.
Having a life threatening illness feels like being on the next level. You're not on earth because you're closer to death, but you're not quite in heaven either because you're still alive. You're on this strange limbo level. Mikey feels the same. Being told from the age of four that you could die at any moment and you might not make it past childhood is a lot to deal with.
It's a widely known fact that women take an unfathomable amount of time getting ready to go out. You may think we have gone for the effortless and natural look, but we actually ordered our outfit three weeks ago on ASOS, and have spent the past five hours shaving, tweezing, moisturising, tanning, nail painting, hair dyeing, hair curling and face painting.
Gavin Extence's writing is both witty and sincere, a clique page-turner it isn't. But certainly a more refined novel for the modern man to read at leisure. Many memorable moments you'll feel compelled to share. For instance, when Gabriel Vaughn feels outmaneuvered by a young clergyman it's made the funnier that in fact, he was outbullshited.
Don't ever give up on love. One thing I believe to be true is that, life is ALWAYS conspiring on our behalf, and I have absolutely no regrets in any of it, no matter how hard it got (and boy did it get hard!!). Keep the faith, keep looking ahead and allow your heart to soften, and your dreams to blossom. Don't let life toughen you too much, often when there is a heartbreak it can be a blessing in disguise to allow an even better match in to your life.
Scrolling though the news channels this morning was like the opening sequence to a film in which the director is trying to convey just how chaotic the world has become in the dystopian future. Except it's real life. It's right now, and though I can choose to turn off the TV, I cannot forget what I've learned and I cannot ignore it - and nor should you.
When Napoleon remarked 'In politics, stupidity is not a handicap' I doubt even he could have foreseen the damage of blending stupidity with unmasked plutocracy and obsequious entitlement. Last week's apathetic paroxysm by British citizens was far more about the obedient breakdown of society than it was about the affirmation of our individual and collective preservation.