It's only since becoming a dad I realise where the strength must have come from. You've told me countless times "you'll know what it's like when you have your own", and you were right.
Thank you for knowing that, an hour after I walked away from him - as he cried and kicked and screamed his way through another defiant display on the other side of the window - his sobs still echoed in my head.
So who is the best person in the school to approach for help in this instance and how can you make the most of the meeting time? Also, what can you ask the school to consider doing to practically support your child?
At Living Streets, we've always promoted walking to school as an easy way for children to get more active. It's a journey they're making every day anyway, so let's make it an active one. We're not the only ones seizing on the potential of the walk to school to create a healthier nation.
My school run adventure started a few weeks ago, when I joined millions of other parents and carers around the UK who had already headed back in to the cauldron of school runs since the summer break.
I never anticipated the hurdles we would face in our bid to find a school that catered for his needs and requirements. Because he struggles to meet the required academic levels of achievement we found the choice of schools available were limited to one of two options, both of which are situated on the South Coast.
That moment when you think you only have two minutes to get to school pick up and you're stuck in traffic an hour away, then you suddenly remember it's 'make ornaments out of your own bogies' club, is pure euphoria.
But now as the children settle back into school I can see that it was the time spent in the great outdoors where the children got their best lesson. And it's where I got mine too.
Aside from leaving home, this is probably one of the most significant life transitions your child will make and how you, their parent, help them through this transition is an important job. Don't be intimidated though, it can be a relatively straight forward one if you can follow a few simple principles.
When you are the parent of a child with autism you have a choice to make about schooling: whether to send your son or daughter to a special school or to a mainstream one. Special schools, where your child will be around only children with special needs, will have more knowledge; mainstream schools have kids that can relate "normally" and good habits hopefully to be copied... I think the system as is stands at the moment is failing these wonderful children who have so much to offer in this world and with the increase of diagnosis are not going anywhere and it will be a great loss to society if they are overlooked.
As our children are going back to school, a lot of them starting Big School for the first time, I wanted to share with you something that I don't hear mentioned that much, namely transition regression.
It read "Enjoy the last day of the hols!!" followed by an abundance of teen emojis including a smiley face, hand clapping, three glasses of red wine, three of white, three of beer, five of champagne, a thumbs up and that random angry red man with the goatee and pointy nose - not sure what he was in reference to.
With 67% of teachers claiming that their job has adversely impacted on their mental or physical health, it's important that proactive measures are implemented to help manage stress effectively. With this in mind, I have put together 7 top tips to help you stay cool, calm and collected whilst in the classroom.
So, if like me your baby has only days left as a 'pre-schooler' then feel free to crack open a bottle and weep along with me... here's my 10 Ways to Know You Have a Child Starting School this September:
I thought of him constantly throughout the day. How is he getting on? Did he bother to eat lunch? Has he made friends? At quarter past three I was to get my answers but as he walked out and I prepared myself to hit him with every imaginable enquiry a parent could make, he simply declared "it's ok Dad you can drive home, I'm walking back with my mates." Perfect, I thought.
The new school year has started. First day photos have been taken, schoolbags have grown heavy with new books, and the reality of homework and early morning alarm clocks is beginning to set in. The evenings are shortening and the papers are speculating about the chances of an Indian Summer. It's September again...