The other weekend I was given the opportunity to run a 10k in Paris, amazing right? Yes, but that was mainly due to the Paris part, less the 10k. So let me fill you in on a little secret, before that weekend I had never run a 10k. So I was thinking, I wish that I had been told a few things about running your first 10k which would have made my life a little easier.
What a waste of a life. All those highs and lows. All those start again Mondays, and "Damn, I've blown it now" moments. Where in this NHS plan is there a mention of health and happiness, or dealing with the psychological side of weight gain, where does it mention being active and learning to love physical activity?
The first time it happened I was running on a busy street and three men in a white van beeped their horn and yelled something about my 'tight ass' as I crossed their path. I felt the heat rising to my face and a stab of anger in the pit of my stomach, but I thought 'whatever, they're just sad old men who don't know how to talk to women', I flipped them the bird and upped my pace.
So you nervously lined up at the start of a race this weekend eyeing up your competitors, checking to see if there is anyone of a similar build to you in what I like to call the Fat Runner Scan. You know for sure you won't win but for goodness sake don't let me come last you say to yourself, as you move towards the middle of the starting field in a final attempt to avoid the dreaded last place spot.
"Tell me about your weight?" he asked and I knew where this was going. "The problem is you are just too unfit to run this marathon" he continued. If rolling your eyes was a more acceptable way of showing your contempt I would have done so but instead I simply replied, "What you mean is I am TOO FAT?" To which he just smiled and sat back in his chair.
It is different putting on the Welsh vest compared to the British vest, and being rivals with athletes who are normal on the same team as you. But that is all part of what makes the Commonwealth Games extra special and to me it's as special as the Olympics. I was fourth in 2006, third in 2010 so this time I want to go even better...