UK Suicide
"He/she is difficult to engage." It's a term that I have often heard used by psychiatric staff when talking about patients. I was described as "difficult to engage" when I was under mental health services and now that I run a Suicide Crisis Centre, I frequently hear the same phrase used by psychiatric staff who signpost to us.
'My world was turned upside down forever.'
It is anonymous and discreet.
‘Mommy, I owe them; I owe them’
'It is vital that when people do seek help, they get the support they need.'
'I walked in hopeless and I walked out holding on to a little nugget of hope.'
The Walford matriarch ended her life during highly emotional scenes.
The statistics have been called 'shameful'.
There is a lot I have discovered since you took your own life. Firstly, while there is no hierarchy of death where one is better than the other, it's safe to say that living a long life is at the top while a short one is at the bottom. I don't know where suicide sits, but it's safe to say, it makes other people REALLY uncomfortable. I was advised against telling people how you died. And in the initial bizarreness of picking your burial plot and coffin (and being asked whether Robert was an eco-friendly man), I erred on the side of caution. But by this 30th day, I have realised when the worst, most devastating thing possible happens, you lose the energy to maintain any artifice.