I will never know for sure, but I think a big factor in my birth experience was my feeling of confidence and self-efficacy. Thanks to the women who shared their positive birth stories with me, I could so clearly visualise a calm, positive birth of my own. I'd played it out in my mind that many times, is it so surprising that the reality was just that?
I on the other hand, wondered what the shitting hell had happened to me. My body had been violated, I was exhausted and all of a sudden I had to deal with this crying seven pound bundle of skin and hair. I wondered where my motherly instinct had pissed off to and why I had no idea as to what type of cry my baby was making. Please tell me I am not the only one who could not decipher, hungry, tired, sick and bored cries?
Don't get me wrong, my labour was long and it was hard work, that's why it's called labour. But it was the most incredible experience of my life and I'm so glad I did the research beforehand to enable me to re-evaluate everything I'd ever been told about birth and to therefore switch off from the negativity surrounding the subject and be able to believe that it could be a positive experience.
It's an umbilical cord - it nourished and connected baby to mother for nine months. Without it there would be no baby - it is a miraculous part of our human engineering and so why does it provoke a reaction of such disgust? Rochelle is proud of hers - so why does her decision to preserve it warrant such discussion?
I had slumped down in a chair and was unaware of the commotion, as a swarm of doctors and midwives surrounded me and hoisted me up onto a bed. A short time later, I opened my eyes to find myself breathing through an oxygen mask and shaking uncontrollably. All I could hear repeatedly were the words, 'We need blood!'