"I know I’m very lucky to have him alive, but yes, I'm also grieving," the Good Morning Britain star told the Sunday Times.
The Strictly professional turned judge was attacked by his alcoholic father one Boxing Day and spent several days in hospital recovering.
The presenter told fans she was “incredibly moved and humbled by the whole experience” at last week's event, while sharing an update on Derek’s health.
The Good Morning Britain presenter was awarded the honour at Windsor Castle for her services to broadcasting, to journalism and to charity.
The Good Morning Britain presenter’s husband has suffered long-lasting effects after contracting Covid in March 2020.
"Richard you're just ranting," the union boss told the ITV presenter.
The Good Morning Britain star revealed earlier this week her husband was in hospital again due to life-threatening sepsis.
"We are again fighting to get him home."
“It has been said to me over the years that I do have a touch of Paddington Bear about me."
"The important thing is, is we’re back on the right side of it now," she said as she returned to GMB after a three-week absence.